Thursday July 30th 1863 O I believe I will write a journal, said sister A., a few days ago. It will be so novel like, & good to refer to, when I get old. That's just it; I want to begin now; I will too said I; it will be so nice. So A. has gone away, & I will begin mine now. The rest have gone too, & I am alone. It is such a good lonesome, to sit by the east window, in our pleasant parlor, & sew, read, or any thing else I choose. If I only had some one here to enjoy it with me, & not disturb me, it would be some pleasanter; but I can get along very well, this way. Ma has gone to W. to visit, & left A. & I, to keep house, & a funny time we have. I do the kitchen work, & she does the rest. She says she can't bear to do housework, but I tell her she will have to come to it. I nearly got sick yesterday, hearing her tell what she is going to have, when she gets married, which consisted of living in the city, & having a piano, silk dress, & servants. I think it will be funny living, & told her so; but she only laughed at my not wanting only a farm & things to farm with. I wonder why I am so odd; I cant find any one like me. I try to like to be somebody big, & like fine things, & know lots, but I can't, & its no use to try; & I expect to be a farmer any way; let them say what they will. The farmers life, is the life for me, I own I love it dearly. I should like to know if M. knows A. talked so; I expect he would take her part, of course, folks generally [sic] do. Well I hope they won't be disappointed. She has gone to the P O. I wonder if she will bring me a letter. Hope so. Friday the 30th [sic] [1863] A.returned late last night, but brought me no letter; She got one for herself though, which she answered & sent to the office today. She heard of three deaths D. Ewing & W [sic] Goe they were soldiers, & Mrs. Lanes babe; she heard too, something about me, & wont tell what it is. I think by the way she talks, it is nothing good. I don't know what it can be; I am sure I try to do right, but still they will talk. It is hard to bear it patiently, but I will try: & our folks blame me too. I imagine it is something about W., they don't like him much, & I don't see why: I think he is all right Weds. 5th August 1863 Wm. B & Mr C have come home on furlough. They arrived last night A. is not very well We are having such a pleasant rain today We received a letter from E. last Sun. it contained but little news Tomorrow is prayer meeting at the school house guess I will go. Fri. 7th [August 1863] I have just returned from inviting hands to dig a well: was quite successful had a very pleasant ride Mysrs. R. & B. drawed stone today. I attended meeting yesterday; it was a real good one. W. was there I don't believe he is any happier than I am; judging from looks & actions. I did not appear to notice him at all. Another lamb has been gathered into the fold of Christ. E. Bierce was buried yesterday A. had Co today while I was gone Mrs. S. & daughter A. had a beau the other night & she feels so big over it she has to tell every one she sees about it. I wonder what M. will say when she tell [sic] him I expect he will laugh & think it all right at first but I don't believe he will long if he (the beau I mean) comes again he (M) will be apt to tell her whats what Sat 8th [August 1863] A.has gone to meeting & left me so I guess I will write some. I attended meeting this fore noon & heard a very good sermon delivered by Mr M. his text was James 3 17 I wonder why I think of W. so much today. It seems as if he will be here but I don't think he will I wonder why he was not at meeting today. A. has washed & I ironed. She has fixed the house awful nice; is expecting Co, I guess. She is such a quear [sic] girl; good to; no wonder M. loves her; & others too. I wish I was more cheerful (perhaps that is wrong) & entertaining. I don't see how the children, or any one else, can think as much as they do of me I am so sober & sour But the dear little lass at sabbath school loves me & all the folks are so kind I must try to be more worthy of their affection Well here it is time to don my apron & go & get tea I have to make some pies too wonder if I will burn them a [sic] A. did her cake I love to laugh at her cooking & doing kitchen work not because I am so perfect no indeed but for the fun of it Well I must hurry & make them good too for perhaps M. will be here. Who knows Mon. 10th [August 1863] Again it is Monday & how many changes one week has brought to pass This world is full of wonders What a wonderful day yesterday was It rained in the morning so I did not go to sabbath school but went to 11 oclock meeting; was disappointed for there was none Staid to afternoon & heard a very good sermon & was honored with the Co of a soldier during my walk home & in the evening We had a very interesting time Wm & myself A. was so good as to get tea for us but he had dined before & declined eating I complemented her a considerable for being so smart Wm starts for the south Wedn. While at church I heard that W. is sick with the scarlet rash I guess that is the reason I thought of him so much Sat. it was about the time he was taken sick Only one week since we parted & he was so angry I don't believe he would spoke to me so last evening if I could have seen him O why cant I write about something else besides him It is of no use I must forget him but that is impossible at least for the present Perhaps Wm. is better (balance of sentence has been erased) Are going to have a B. tomorrow to draw stone for a well will have to get up in the morning I guess Tues. 11th [August 1863] O what times we had baking for the B A. made the cake & bread & I preferred making pies she is such an admirer of novel things & I tell you she looked novel with her sleeves rolled up & in the bread up to her elbows I had to laugh at a remark she made about killing chickens She said she hated to kill them & then she would think of our soldiers being killed so umercifully [sic] & then she would be more courageous because the rebels kill the soldiers she spits her spite on the chickens. Aint she patriotic? We had a host of young men here to dinner to day they were drawing stone for our well A. waited on the tabel [sic] I am so glad she did for I would have to so [bashuated] would have made more baulks than I would have got along with I am afraid She did nobly & the dinner was excellent & ma was not here to boss either We are undoubtedly learning very fast will soon be able to keep house alone & I think there is need of knowing A. especially judging from appearances The appearance of M. I mean for I have seen his picture A. shewed it to me today I like his looks very well but I have seen other I liked about as well I had such a peasant ride this morning & made some very pleasant calls leaving A. to prepare the chickens do up the mornings work & other things to [sic] numerous to mention When I returned everything was done up to order & as fine as a school ma'am Frid. 14th [August 1863] While busily engaged writing the other evening my attention was attracted by hearing a noise & on looking up saw a wagon coming across the bridge upon a nearer approach we perceived that it was filled with people & who could it be A. said it looked like the old fashioned loads from W. but I said it did not believe it was any from there well when they got here “lo & behold” it was our relatives from there come to bring ma home Of course they were both tired & hungry after their long ride so we brought out the remainder of our goodies with a little hot tea greatly refreshed them of course we had plenty of gab mixed in They staid till morning & A. & myself accompanied them to As in the forenoon & Ds in the afternoon they had a merry time but I enjoyed it but little “O how could I be merry was it me no not I” What a relief it was when we started home it was nearly dark but it corresponded with my feelings I evaded the questions of As concerning my actions & talked on other subjects Wm J. & V. are here digging our well there was a man stopped here to get dinner today he paid 25 cts I intend to donate it to the library V. says he is a C H I saw W the other day he has got well Wm has got his furlo. renewed I guess A is writing to M she looks pleased about something. Mon. 17th [August 1863] I have just returned from a ride & while I rest and cool off awhile will write a little The wind blows quite hard but whatsoever notwithstanding nevertheless it is extremely warm; but I am not doing much so I will not complain; and are not troubled waiting on work men for there are no one here to work on our well it is only partly dug. Yesterday I spent very pleasantly. In the morning A. and myself went to sabbath school and staid to prayer meeting was a great deal of interest manifested and in the afternoon I went up to hear Mr. Lile preache his last sermon for this circuit. His text was in the 32 psalm 7 ver. I saw W. at meeting. Our eyes met and then I avoided him once was enough; he has not been happy as he expected. E. has got home again; has been staying with sister H. about two months. I received 3 letters from soldiers; did not contain much news One from Mr. Thornbrue which was very good; he must be a christian to write such good letters; hope my letters will be as welcome as his. Thank [Coy] very much to send me such a good correspondent. A. is piecing bed quilts is very busy would like to have M. come to see how industrious she is & me to. Thurs. 20th [August 1863] Well it is evening & I am very comfortable ensconsed in the rocking chair ready to write a few more lines in my journal. I believe I left A. piecing quilts Monday so I will begin where I left off. Well about 4 oclock Mr. Bray came with a load of stone, & ma got ready & rode over to Mrs. B. to spend the night & left us girls alone of course. Well about dusk as we were sitting out in the yard, who should make his appearance but a soldiers horse back; the very one I had been wishing for, namely M. Being very much surprised & not knowing which was to go I took a bee line on double quick for the corn, with E. close in the rear leaving A. to pitch battle & fight it out or surrender as she saw fit. How she got through with it can be better imagined than described as there was no third person to report; but I guess he surrendered, for on returning to the parlor who should I find but the said soldier. But that was only a beginning of greater troubles. He had rode about 17ms & was no doubt exceedingly hungry & I must get supper & of what should it consist but I will pass over my troubles & fun while engaged in the kitchen. Suffise it to say that in due time the said supper was produced & parta- ken of very heartily & pronounced excellent; wasn't I paid for my labor. To think that I a young girl of 17 could get tea without the advice of an older person; surely it was very encouraging. After tea we had a real good time singing with the aid of M. Then we retired. Well that is not all breakfast had to be got; but A. bossed around a little & a chicken was soon [sayling] in the spider Breakfast over & the work don A. & M. went to take a morning walk, which happened to last till noon. When they returned dinner was about ready which was prepared under the supervision of ma who had returned form her visit. Adter dinner he helped the workmen on our well till about 3 oclock & then started for W. Mrs. J. was here the same day. In the evening A. & myself went to metting. Yesterday was out calling did not return till late. Today went up to thelp Mrs. L. start east; had a great time; have been washing too& am consequently very tired. E. has gone over to visit Mrs. [Sten] Ma and I have had real fun pulling weeds; some times she would get one so large I would have to reinforce her, & it would have to surrender. We left two or three large ones; ma said we would have to wait till we had more strength & then make another attack. So we left the field to then [sic] & retreated to the house in good order. Sun. 23rd [August 1863] Well here it is Sunday again, how fast time fies I can hardly conceive that it realy [sic] is three weeks ago tonight since W. left. I have not spoken to him since. Wonder why he was not at meeting today He lost a great deal for we had such a good one Wm. Don't like him either he goes with the rest I don't care…he is merely a friend. I must stop such foolishness & write something else. I had such a pleasant excursion last Friday down south to see some friends I had not seen for 2 ys Mrs. A. was washing when I got there. Staid till after dinner & spent the afternoon with her & her 2 daughters & about 5 started my journey about two ms farther. I had not proceeded far how ever before I discovered that both my bridle & girth was broken. To dismount was but the work of a moment, but to mend the things - & get on again was not so easy; but I finally managed to do so and on we went. It was nearly dark when we halted at the end of our journey. They all appeared glad to see me once more and it seemed like old times to be with them again. Mrs. Roberts insisted on getting me a warm supper after my ride but I refused, and so she got a cold bite, so she said, which was very good. After that we had a nice chat on different subjects. About 8 oclock I retired. It was such a pleasant evening I lay awake a long time looking through the window at the stars: of course my mind was busy too. Presently the angel of sleep came and bore me to the land of dreams, which was very pleasant for W. was there with me. I was out in the orchard and he came and wished to be friends again. W. had a good time. But it was only a dreem [sic] and soon passed away. The next morn- ing was cloudy. When I arose breakfast was nearly ready; after it was over I prepaired [sic] to return, but Mrs. R. coaxed me to stay till after dinner; then I started (that is after J. had fixed the bridle and things) and come part way and took tea with Mrs. H. When I got home (which was about 6) was very much surprised to find that A. had gone to town with M. where she is yet. He came up after her. She had to go without her hat, and vail, for I had them. Well, I must stop that harnague and fix for [Conn] for I am expecting Wm. Mon. 24th [August 1863] More curious things than ever has happened. One of the seven wonders of the world. Wm. Accompanied me home from church yesterday. He did not come in but said if it was agreeable he would call in the evening. I consented and he went off. When I entered the house I found E. there, wondering why she could not have a beau too. I told her perhaps she would sometime. She thought there was but little prospects of any. Towards dark I was fixing up a little of course, and E. began about his coming. She had her own fun about it, and said she intended to sit up as long as I did. I told her I did not care, and perhaps C. would come too. She did not think he would; but time proved quite to the contrary. For soon there appeared two young men who took a bee line for our house. They reached here in due time and proved to be the identical persons. E. and C. were quite bashfull and did not have much to say, but Wm. and I had a real time. I wonder what A. will say about Es beau. While E. was scolding about something, ma told her that if she was not better natured she should not have another. I hope it will make her better for she has not patience scarcely at all. Sept. 2d [1863] Over one week has elapsed since I have written any in my journal, and many events has taken place since then. I have just returned from a visit to my sister H. Had a good time. We started from home about VIII and after traveling till 3 we arrived at the end of our journey. Glad was we to rest after traveling so far and receive the welcome which was ready from sister and her family. Brother was not at home nor did not come till dark. The next day I took a long walk and gathered some flowers and made such a nice flower pot. D. and H. said I went down to see N. we left for home the next day. It looked so lonely after we left. H. and two children stood at the gate watching us and the little babe was asleep in the cradle. I expected to see the well finished when I got home, but did not for they had stopped the old one and commenced another. There was no one here to work but Wm. M., Ma and I drawed up the dirt. We had not been engaged that way long, till who should make his appearance but W. He did not stay but a few minutes. I can not tell wheather [sic] he is angry yet or not. I can't help but think he is not, but his actions speak the other way. Last sabbath evening E. and myself started to the river after water. When a few rods from the house we met him and his brother. I had not spoken to him, since the time he was here; and what should I do? I did not wish to make any advances towards friends till he did. We met. He held out his hand which I took. My heart had arose in such a happy tumult, but thinking of his last words and manner, had commanded it to be still; but when my hand was clasped in his it refused to obey. I was again near him. I scarcely spoke and he did not say any thing. Thurs. 3rd [September 1863] Evening has again closed in & we are forced to stop work & yield to nature & sleep. How pleasant it is to have night come after a hard days work. I can partly appreciate it to night, for I have been helping on our well, & am so tired, & it has been all in vain, for we have found no water yet. Mr. R came over & found another place to dig. Wm. J. helped draw up dirt. How pleasant it is to have such a confidential friend to talk to as my diary. I don't hardly know what I done before I begun this; would not take a considerable for it. It will never deceive. Sat. the 5th [September 1863] Two more days have passed & what changes they have brought. O Father how mysterious are thy ways. I am not worthy of this thy great blessing. Forgive me for murmuring at they providence & doubting thy goodness. I have been working on the well this morning but W. came & worked in my place. At first I avoided & slighted him, but perceiving that he was inclined to be friendly I treated him accordingly. He staid till after dinner & I went to the river after water; when about half way I met him going off. I stopped & thanked him for his labor; & he said he was not angry now & wished to be friends. I had such an awful ride yesterday over to the P. O. & got a 100 wt. of flour & started back & only got to sister A. when Jack kicked up & away I & the flour went; but it did not take long to reseat myself in the saddle & after a vigorous pull & push we were once more ready for our journey; but had not proceeded far when by some of Jacks dexterous motions it became very evident that I had to load up again; but having no convenient place to assist in getting on I concluded to walk; so placing the flour in the saddle, we started on. By walking a little way convinced me that it was harder walking than riding & not in the best of humor about getting thrown so many times I mounted behind the saddle & finely reached home. I had such a curious dream the other night. I thought I was dying with consumption & brother O. was my doctor. I did not feel afraid to die; but quite happy. O Father may I so live that I may not leave the world with regret. Wed. 15th [Sept. 1863] Little did I think when last I wrote, that the next time would find me so far away from home. But so it is. Here I am about 45 ms. From home attending school at [Ia.} A. M. & He had been talking of coming here but I did not think as I could come till ma said I could if I wanted to. At first I thought it was impossible for there was so much to do at home but she argued it all away & the consequence was that I am here ready to begin studies. Left home last Mon. B. Bonhaur brought us part way; had such a good time coming. Got to H. about three oclock & found Cousin M looking fo us; & after dinner we went up in town to purchase some things; did not get back till sundown the n we had to start for Aunt Ms.; & such a time as we had, packed in so tight that they nearly crowded B. & myself out of the wagon; but we finaly [sic] arrived & found the folks snugly ensconsed in bed. It did not take long however to rout them out for Mattie was going with us & was in such a hurry for us to come did not take long to make her sensible of our arrival. I was very tired & glad to retired as soon as possible. But time waits for no one & it was not long till morning & then it was “hurrah boys” till we got started which was 15 ms. Of 8 oclock Uncle J. brought us here & B. went back It was nearly 2 oclock when we got here & what should we do here among strangers; but there is generally some way provided for the children of men & soon a friend came to our help & we have found a friend & helper in Mr. C. He took so much pains with us yesterday; spent all the afternoon trying to get us a room & we are finally settled across the road from his house Have one room for which we pay 1.50 per month. We have such funny times keeping house Mattie, M. A. & myself & I have been to the Seminary today for the first timE Frid 18th [September 1863] O what a beautiful morning this is. The sun shines so brightly on the houses of different colors If it is so pleasant in the city what must it be in the country home I should like to call on our folks & see how they are getting along I expect they would like to do the same to see how they prosper We get along fine have all the work done & it is only 7 oclock; are quite smart keeping house I guess if some of the soldier boys would come in they would be fascinated with the order of the room & its mistresses. Alice & Mattie are prepairing for school & I must do so to This is funny keeping house; quite novel. Rec'd a letter from Wm. This morning He is most well & will start for the Reg't before long. Alice has just come from Mr. Clelands with some milk & they are going to have pudding & milk for dinner She says she saw a soldier over there. There is quite a number here; one on each side Sept. Mon 21st How fast time flies, for it is just one week, since I left home. I wonder what they are doing now but I expect they [sic] they are at work as usual. I have been so busy since I left home that I have not had time to think of any one hardly; not even W. I wonder why he looked so sober that day at meeting. I have often seen him sober; but never so much so. I heard he is going to war; perhaps that is why & it will be so long before we see each other again. Maybe we will never meet again in this world. Should like to know if he misses me there. The girls have gone to school & I am here alone. Alice & Mattie are going to see the music teacher when they get back, & I have to get supper & they say I have to go to Mr. Clelands for milk to make bread. Perhaps I will see the soldier as I have not seen him yet to know him I have written my essay & let the girls read it They complimented me a considerable; thought it was so good. The subject is Hope. I really hope I won't get scared when I read it. There are so many passers by that I have to stop to look at them but they are all strangers. If I could see some of the Grand River folks it would do me lots of good. Would like to know if they had a good meeting there yesterday I attended three meetings & one Sabbath school yesterday. They were very good but not the ones at home after all. I ought to write to some of them up there this week. Tues 22nd Have just returned from the Seminary & had very good lessons. I like the Teacher very well & the scholars too, & had several new ones this week. One young man named Shepherd Mattie calls him brother. He is real good looking Mat went over to Mr Clelands last evening & she had not been over there very long till Mr. C. called for us to come over. We did so & they treated us to melon. It was ever so good. He then passed around some Elder wine. The girls did not like it so I had to drink it all Said they was afraid I would get drunk. Alice says she can just feel the effects of hers. We staid & made quite a visit. The soldier was so talkative. He said he had to court all this week & next he is going to school. Alice has gone to take music lessons for the first time. Said she expected she would come home about sick had the don't cares she said but I guess she is love sick that's whats the matter She has been looking at at Ms picture Mattie has laid down on the bed & says we must call her when it is school time. They all have to go back but me. Mat is lying on the floor studying so it is real still now. Have got my essay written for this week. Begun a letter to brother O. yesterday but have not finished it yet Later All alone & how lonely I am. The girls have all gone to recitation How I wish some one from G. R. would call on me while alone; but that is impossible I have tried to study but my thoughts turn mechanically to the loved ones at home How I would like to be with them awhile but no I must study & try to learn something & be somebody they say Yes I will try but it is such a punishment to stay here in town I long for the quiet of my country home O well I must not grumble in this way the girls will soon be home & want some supper A. was very much delighted with her music We have had & invite to go to the Mite Society this evening; don't know wheather [sic] we will accept or not. I would rather not but the girls say they want to get acquainted Sept. Wed. 23rd The busy routine of the day is over & evening with her quiet has again come to gladden the heart of the laborer. I hale it with delight although I am not tired; but it is so pleasant when twilight comes it reminds me of the chores which the farmers have to do The day has passed so pleasantly Good lessons & good news. Mr. C. came & brought us a letter from Uncle. He said that Cousin Stewart is home on furlough & will call on us as he goes back. I did not have to stay alone today. Mat was with me & we got supper while they were gone to recite. Mat went to the store to get some butter & dried apples. We had to wait tea for them could not imagine why they staid so long When they came they had been around & got 50 cts. worth of dried apples They was orful tickled to think they were going to have something to eat; but was surprised when we told them we had some They did not notice our dumplings till we were seated at the table & they were soon disposed of though. I really thought A. was not going to stop but time brings all things to a close & so it was with her eating Mattie had to go to practice & Mat & A. did up the work Mat & I did not accept the invite to attend the society but went to a political speech made by Mr. Nourse it was very good After we had been there awhile here come A. & Mattie whom we supposed to be enjoying themselves at the society for we left them prepairing; but their friend did not call for the; & we learned the next morning that she did call for them after they left Sept. Thurs. 24th I awoke the first one this morning but instead of getting up I called A & Mat to make a fire. They of course obeyed & after it had burned awhile I arose & helped get breakfast Had just got the potatoes boiling when some boys came along with some beef; we bought some for breakfast We had quite a conversation about religion A. & Mattie sayed that Christians should prove to the world that there was a reality in religion by their daily walk & conversation; giving Mat & I a hint. I know that I don't do as I ought to & I am ashamed to let her exceed me in such things; Tonight is prayer meeting & I must go I have just bought a book (Baxters St. rest price 60 cts.) of a culporter from Pella. A. had gone to practice When she returned we told her one of the Pella boys had been here. After bothering her enough we told her about it Mon. 28th Is it possible that it has been two weeks since I left home. It don't seem so long. We have not heard from there since but are looking for a letter tomorrow & hope we will not be disappointed Everything [paped] off pleasantly Friday essays & all; was but a few spectators present. Sat. we worked so hard washing ironing baking & [?] & was real tired; then the girls all went up town & left me alone; So I thought I would take a walk. It was nearly sundown & thinking about friends & home went rather too far. The moon shone brightly & it was rather late when I got back & found the girls had company. Misses B. L. & W. We had a very pleasant chat then the girls kept on inviting us to visit them which we will do with pleasure We attended the S. A. S. friday eve. There were a large assembly. It was at P. Gad Bryans. Yesterday we attended meeting & S. S. In the afternoon Mat & I visited the grave yard. It is about a mile. S. of town in a very pleasant grove; and this morning I surprised the girls by getting up first & making a fire Oct. Sat. 3d It is so muddy & rainy this morning I have hardly been out; but it is Sat. & we don't have to go to school & not much to do but enjoy ourselves. We have been making chance poetry & some of it was real cute. A. & Mattie are asking questions on the slates. R. B. & C. L. were here & staid last night they came for Mattie to go to the Society but it rained so they did not go & we had such a good time singing We have no wood today only what we borrow; but have engaged a load Mat has been over to see J. 3 or 4 times, A. has been sick nearly all the week. Some boys has just brought us some wood. Have not heard from home yet. I have been solving problems & am so tired. Later Have been reading some of this to the girls A. says she is proud of her smart sister; and well might she be for I have learned so many big words to insert in my language; it bothers me some though to get them in just right; but practice makes perfect. So there is some hope of my knowing something yet Mon. 5 [October 1863] The sun is shining so warm today for the first in a long time. It seems so pleasant for it was so cold yesterday it snowed. A. is worse has a great deal of fever. Hope she will soon be better for it makes her so homesick. She is so anxious to hear from there. We had such a good meeting yesterday; it seemed so much like home. We get along housekeeping after the same old style; will have to get some more flour today or stop eating Sat. 10 [October 1863] This week has seemed so short & I have been so busy have not had time to write in this. But have not much to do today only iron & bake. We washed a little the other day & could hardly get water to finish. A. has gone over to Auntys after some milk; she don't appear to be in any hurry. Expect they are talking about the society. The girls went with her & left Mat. & I at home but we went over to Mr. C. & had a visit. We wrote to ma this morning. A.went to school yesterday for the first time in nearly two weeks. She did not feel very well & got excused & when I got home she was writing to sister D. She wanted me to write some & of course I had to read hers to know what write; by doing so I found that she had bought some apples; then we had some dumplins for supper. Presently A.disappeared & Mattie went over to Mr. C. & found her eating supper there. Then just for spite we tried to eat all the dumplins up but there was one too many for us. A. soon came & they went to the society & left us to wash the dishes Mat & I called on the other “old maids” the other eve. O we had a splendid time pulling candy. God a letter from home the other day. Have just been up town & got some chickens. A. & Mattie has gone to practice music. Mat went to kill a chicken but her heart failed her & Mrs. Spencer killed it for us. Miss Coffman called on us today. The drums are beating & I want to go up town & see them train but have so much to do. O sich housekeeping the girls have up set the stove & spilt the dishwater & broke a saucer & “old harry” to pay in general. About the way with children & when we set them to work. Mat done the ironing & I the baking & now she has gone as usual to Mr. C. “God sakes” Mattie says she is going to write something naughty about me; wonder what it will be. Her & A. has such times trying to get poor; want to make their folks think they study hard are trying a new remedy; thought they would eat us out of house & home this afternoon. Guess our folks will know I study lots for I will be so much better scholar; acts speak as loud as looks sometimes. They tried to get me to let them see my love letters; just as if I would; they say they are mad to me just as if I care for their love or mad either. Oct. Mon. 12 [1863] Have just returned from a political speech at the court room we had a great time trying to find it & paraded around the public square & finally started home when a gentleman directed us There were good speeches made & when we got home we found a cold & deserted house. The girls had gone to recitation. Mat proceeded to make a fire & went out to cut off a stick of wood & what do you suppose happened. Why a young soldier came along & cut it for her wasn't he clever. I think he was & good looking too. Well Mat has got the wood & I must get supper Have got the chicken over & it won't take long It is raining some Oct. Thurs. 15th [1863] I have just come from school with hard lessons but instead of studying as I ought to have seated myself to forget them by writing in this Mat is cyphering Mattie has been to the P.O. & got a letter I guess but won't let us see it A. has gone to practice We all went down to see the other girls last evening; had an awful good time They played on their melodian for us O that puts me in mind of the evening before About dusk a lady called to get us to go to the [mite] We did not decide to go then but told her we would call for her if we did go; so after a few moments debating we concluded to go then it took some time to prepair for gents would be present & we must look our best Well we arrived at the house of our friend but had to wait for her to get ready We finally left there 7 in number & soon reached the other place had lots of introductions & fun & about 9 oclock we started for home Of course young ladies must not leave such a place without a beau & not being enough for all was forced to share one among five or six J. happened to be the lucky (or unlucky) one for he got the most & came home with us all but Mattie she had one all to herself. I guess that is enough suffice it to say we all got home safe I received a letter from brother G. & he wants me to come up there & teach school will have to go in about two weeks The girls nearly had a spell over it but don't say so much now I don't know how they will get along without me or wheather I can go home first or not. The school is five months & $20 per mo. It seems a long time to stay away & I don't like to leave the girls we have such pleasant times but duty calls I expect A. will get the blues oftener than ever Tonight is prayer meeting I will miss that up there I don't believe I will regret coming here only I am getting so careless while at home it was so quiet & retired I enjoyed myself so well but here it is so lively & in a confusion so I cannot think of any thing but nonsense I long for the quiet of sisters country home Later I have been to prayer meeting & once more witnessed the amazing love of Christ It seems as if I was back to G. R. once more I have been lost for a long time & am once more found How good to reveal Himself to me again when I have been so negligent I have hardly prayed since I came here At home it was my delight to converse with Him once or twice every day No wonder I do not enjoy myself as I once did. Oct Fri 16th [1863] “La sakes” what students do have to undergo especially Fridays Today had declamations went there as usual & had heard but one or two when what do you suppose happened? Why just what might be expected Just about the time I was going to tell what I knew her [sic] come about 10 young men & what should poor me do The foe had come upon us unawares & attacked an unprotected point; had captured a part of my senses & put the rest to flight There was but one alternative left me & I turned to that It was to make the best of it & when the command came for me to march I did so with feelings as near like a school girl going to deliver a public address as can be imagined There were others in the same perdicament [sic] but the afternoon passed very pleasantly & did not notice it was raining till we started home We have got a fire & A. & Mattie have gone over to Aunties previous to getting supper The Prof. gave each of us a subject to write an essay for next week mine is about the stars Our friend Mr. C. called on us today we were so glad to see him His little boy is sick don't think he will get well Oct. Sat. 17 [1863] Last evening we got supper after a fashion & had just got done eating when who should drive up but W. Torrence & Lou T. We were so glad to see them we forgot how lonely we were a little while before but we had to get some more supper for them H. was a full of nonsense as ever & a lively time we had They have just started home The wind blows awful hard & it is quite cold I expected a letter from home so hard today & was disappointed We got one from Uncle & Matie got some thigs Have not done much today could not wash for there was no water Oct. Sun. 18th [1863] Sabbath has come once more the sun shines brightly but it is very cold or has been but it is getting warmer now Mat & I went to church this morning The text was in Malachi 3. 16. Then they that feared the Lord spake often one to another. It was a splendid sermon Came home & staid till after class meeting O what a good time we had I took no part but to listen It called up old memories the refreshing showers of grace that I had received before Oct. 1863 Tues. 20th Have just finished a letter home in reply to one received from bother [C] There were but a few lines but it was better than none. He said there were 160 votes majority on the union side also that he had killed my Nell & sent a “leetle tiny” piece of her to me Dida promised to write next week Mr. Spencer drawed some water for us to wash had a real larg washing Did not have tea till after dark A. & Matte have gone to recite & we are getting supper have got boiled victuals A. got mad to me about a letter & said she did not care wheather [sic] I wrote to her or not We got a joke on her at school this morning we were parsing an extract from one of Miltons poems which was very hard The Proff. remarked that it was Miltons way to get words & sentences mixed together as much as possible meaning of course the Poet but we looked at A & she blushed like a school girl Only a week & I will have to leave here & enter the responsible situation of teacher I expect to enjoy myself very well & still better if I can go by home & see the folks there if but for a few moments To night is the mite S. I don't know wheather [sic] I will go or not I have had to go over to Aunty S. to get some milk Staid quite a long time when I came back found supper ready & as a natural consequence Mat & I will have the dishes to wash Oct Wed 21st [1863] O why do I feel so lonely & forsaken today as if I was alone from home & among strangers who cared nothing for me nor I for them My thoughts turn to the past like a troubled dream & then to the future which appears so dark I was out to the mite last night & that accounts for it It is the way with me generally after I have been so gay & they had music & dancing there Farewell to fashionable society I think I have witnessed you for the last time as a participator I am sick of it It is nothing but deceit adorned with gaudy trappings O God I thank thee that I have such a nature as I have & that I am not given to fashionable things more than I am We staid till about 10 oclock & then returned home A. & Mattie had company & left me behind but Miss G. called one back to take me Mat did not go I wonder why A. acts so lately She has been so impatient for 2 or 3 days especialy [sic] with me I guess “that's whats the matter” with me I cant stand her fault finding & impatience it is so seldom she does it makes me feel bad This is her fist spell since we have been here We had real good lessons today I have no written my essay for the week One of my teeth is grumbling some I guess it got so cold this morning facing the wind & I had to wear my hat Oct. Sat. 24th [1863] The sun was shining very brightly when I arose this morning & it is some warmer than it was yesterday Mattie & I got breakfast A. went over to Auntys to get some milk & staid so long we had it ready when she came back She has gone up town to get her a comforter so she said Our friend Mr. S. stopped to see us the other day on his way to the army We could not imagine why the stage was coming here but when we saw him met him at the door We were so engaged talking did not think of dinner till he said he staid at Uncles & had to leave before breakfast Then we hurried around to get dinner but just got it ready when here come the stage & he had to leave his dinner but we put some in his haversack & away he went He told us lots of news & brought us a letter from his wife it was a real good one & we had a hearty laugh over it. I recieved [sic] a letter from sister H they don't want school to begin yet so I can stay here longer We had an awful time last evening Mattie & A. got some letters in the morning & would not let us see them After they had aggravated us long enough & I got a little spunky they told us one was from brother O. at Little Rock & the other from cousin J. After I had got over my pet we had a good time & finally went to bed & left them writing in their dairies [sic] Today is mail day hope I will get a letter Later A. came from town & brought me a new hood It was real pretty red & white but I thought I would like a dark one better & so I exchanged it She got her a mibia blue & white We did not get any letters I am all alone & have got supper ready & no one to eat with me Mat is at Mr. C. Mattie has gone to practice & A. to see Miss Wood The girls have been bothering me about my picture they think I have got one & I pretended I had & got Ms out of As trunk it is in my pocket now I heard that the President has called for 100000 more troops wonder if any more of my friends will go Well the supper is spoiling & I must got & find my boarders to eat it Oct. Wed. 28th [1863] Four days have passed since I last wrote in this & so much has transpired that I will have to go back where I left off Well off I went to find the girls & here come A. & said she met some girls going from our house had not found any one at home I was glad I was for the house did not look like recieving [sic] callers But they were soon coming back so we must hurry & eat & fix for them When we were about done here they come & we hustled the things in the cupboard in double quick A. & Mattie had a great time making cake got all ready to mix them & found we had neither milk nor shortning so they had to go up town & over to Auntys We sent Mr. S. after some flour but did not get any so Mat & I went over to Mr. C. to get some & they did not have any so we all went to Mr. A. & got some We made quite a visit & she gave us some turnips to eat When we got home they had not finished their cake yet so we went to bed & left them but they came & pulled us out & to match them we put them to bed We had just finished breakfast the next morning when the church bell rang Mat & I went the other girls stayed at home had a first rate sermon; went to Sabbath school also Mattie did not go & was surprised to find tea ready when we returned Then the girls went to take a walk & left me at home I whiled away the time writing to friends When they got back we all went to evening meeting Monday passed very pleasantly in the evening C. & R. came to see us Of course girls will be girls when they are so many together Staid till about 10 Mrs Tisdale from W. came to see us then they went off calling & left Mat & I to get tea was nearly ready when they came back. In the evening we went to Mr. B. had music & some games; were about to start home when here come three young men Of course it would not look well to leave then so we staid a little longer then I was honored with the Ca. of a soldier Capt. Russel was very entertaining & then after all our fuss had to get our lessons This morning I arose before day light a trick I have played for some time the day has passed & nothing of importance has transpired A. & Mattie are so silly They are trying to get supper & say their men don't half provide They both went to the cupboard & looked in & repeated about Old mother Hubbard They think it is better for two to do the work at once A. has put some yeast to soak She has got a letter from M. & won't let us see it The church bell is ringing I wonder what it is for would go & see if did not have to study. Oct. Thurs. 29th Winter is indeed fast approaching so thought I when I awoke this morning & saw it snowing Nevertheless duties must be attended to first the work done up & then prepare for school We lingered at the door dreading to start out in the snow. Had gone but a few steps when the girls thought we ought to go back it was so stormy but I laughed at their cowardice & we went a third of the way & then turned back to our house but stopped at Mr Cs to warm A.& Mattie went home but staid a little longer & when I did go found the room cold & deserted I guess they have gone to practice so kity & I are alone as usual It is so cold it has climbed in my lap & nestled in my sleeve The dear little ting is so pretty gray & white Well I will take it & my book over there it is so cold here Later I have just witnessed the departure of A. & Mattie in a sleight to the festaval [sic] two gents came after them They have been gone all day & just got home from Miss G. & wanted to go so bad & was afraid they couldn't After sputtering around awhile they concluded to go to the P. O. & get some letters but it was shut up After crying & fretting & I don't know what not here came some one after them & they helped the case a considerable I guess for I have not heard any more The bell is ringing at the festival I suppose they are enjoying themselves I should have liked to go but would not enjoyed it with any here but O if W was here with me I would not be lonely Thought many miles between us lie And many forms I see Yet with a tear & with a sigh I often think of thee Dear Savior I will not murmur against my lot for Thou hast abundantly blest me Mrs. C. has been to see us awhile Oct. Fri. 30th Friday evening has arrived once more & finds Mat & myself here alone as usual & enjoying ourselves as well as can be expected of two “old maids” without a beau or any thing else but one of the best little kittens in the Co. while we are writing it comes & bites the pencil & fingers & bothers us all it can Others are riding I guess for I hear bells A. & Mattie has gone with Miss G. to the farm to spend the evening School passed off very few visitors & a good paper by Messrs Boon & Shepherd The girls came home last night at 11 oclock they brought us some cake & candy A. lost her mibia O we have such a pleasant surprise for them have borrowed a bed stead & have got it set up & when they get in will have to get up instead of down. I imagine I see them now trying to get in in the dark. Mon. 2nd [November 1863] Who ever heard of even thought of girls acting as we have this evening Today is A. & Matties time to work they did not go to recite this afternoon so they thought we would have tea early so they took it up & it was not done & had to put it back & here we have been sitting around the table waiting for it & talking about the boys & what good times we have had & what we are going to do Had just cooled down when here come Aunty she wanted to know if we were studying or cutting up Poor lessons was our portion today We must try to do better or the Proff. will not love us or the young men either although one of the declared in a very polite way through the paper “that he loved us & couldend help it They had a comemdrum in the paper about us The snow has disappeared & the streets are so muddy we can hardly get to the Seminary Saturday was a very busy day done a large washing & did not get done till after dark Mr S. got us a load of wood & ½ bu. Of meal today It is 7 weeks today since we left home & only 4 more to stay I do hope we will get a letter from there tomorrow I wonder what changes are in the neighborhood now I heard that the Sabbath school has closed was so reminded of my little class yesterday by having an invitation to teach one of about the size though not so many O I have no spoken about our surprise or the girls sleighride Well they went with Mr Coak & had an awful good time according to their description & got home after midnight They did not think of any thing uncommon & A. said to Mattie “let us see who can get to bed first” so she being the smartest went there first & run against it & could not imagine what it was. I had turned down the cover so they could get in better & seeing it was white scared her worse than ever so back she came after a light & Mattie to see what it was It was some time before they dared to go back to investigate the case & felt sheepish enough when they found a good soft bed on a stead which two thoughtless noughty [sic] mischievous good for nothing girls had placed there for a surprise instead of a ghost & the said girls nearly dead with laughter at their proceedings was pretending sleep in the other corner of the room Nov. Wed. 4th It was raining when I arose this morning & has been raining steady every since so we did not go the Sem. & it was the other girls time to work so I had nothing to do but write & I have put in my time have written four letters It finally stopped raining & Mattie took 10 letters to the office I guess the P. M. will miss us when we leave The girls got to feeling so bad because they did not get any love letters so I had to write them some & then I suppose they felt better but I did not for I was so lonely but got to singing and sung it off The A. got the don't cares & wanted to go to Mr C. but I wouldent left her so I got some apples & pelted her up & had a good time after all only we had to get our lessons There I have had to stop & solve a problem for the girls A. & Mattie don't act as if they had been to supper for they have eaten nearly a loaf of bread toasting it to see if it is good Mat intends to go home Friday I read my dairy [sic] to A & she said “just as if I had to mind you” but she does generally about as I say since I got her trained Since I have to to be the oldest I find I have got a very responsible station to fill that is to “train her up in the way she should go” The poor little dud she needs an adviser when she is so far from her ma & M. Nov. Fri. 6th One more week has passed & I am here alone Mat has gone home Mattie & A. has gone up town We have just come from school & are in quite a bustle for we are expecting Co Mrs. [Faurote] of W. is coming School passed pleasantly today I know I shall regret leaving them A. & Mattie Noble are editresses this week Nov. 1863 Sat. 7th How abruptly I shopped last eve & Mattie has written for me how good to do so for I have been so busy all the time but now our washing & mopping is done & we have only to bake & iron We were in the biggest of the muss when we were startled by a rap I opened the door & there was Miss Winstrum & her cousin they called to has some of us go to the music teachers with them but we were not acquainted & after a very sociable chat they left Mrs. F. came as expected & took tea with us she wanted us to go to Mr Smiths & spend the evening but we decline & had a real old fashioned chat at home A. talked of M. & Mattie talked of M. & poor I had nothing to say No loved one to talk about Miss [Vinton] has been here & took tea with us she is real good after she left we had to get our lessons for Monday Nov. Tues. 10 O how happy I feel I can sing good news from home yes four letters from G. [R.] Mat has come too & told us so much news She saw sister E. at W. said they had not got the spinning & weaving done yet Have got the corn most picked I will have to start home two weeks from Friday to begin school the fist of Dec. Also a letter from M. Bonham O how it stired up old memories She talked so good she knows not the change & her mother talked so kind O why am I so careless would I had not left my home that is all I regret in coming here Yet I trust when I get back in my country home I shall be happy once more I care not how fast time flies till I get there Yesterday I went with the girls to practice then stopped to Aunties heard that Mrs. C. was sick & went to see her I staid but a few moments & came home & ate supper then went back & done her work & baked bread for her done her work this morning Mrs. Baker is assistant at the Seminary & we have got a clock so we will know the time Thurs. 12th The girls went to the mite the other night and we did not want to stay alone so we went to see C. and R. had a real good time but had to hurry home to study & see who come with girls We had been home about an hour when here they come & we did not see after all and they would not tell us but went whispering around & I told A. if she thought more of Mattie than she id of she might have her for her sister and I would be Mats sister but she didn't want to but I went to bed & left her to cover the fire & extinguish the light said she always had that to do The next morning I arose and made the fire & it was our day to work the day passed as usual till nearly night I had been writing home & Mat was getting tea to other girls were getting ready for a ride out to the farm; we didn't' know who with; was just eating when a foot man attracted our attention it proved to be Merril and what did he want; why he wanted some young ladies to go a buggy riding with him. No such good luck as Mat & I going so it must be the other girls & they did not want to go with him so they did not know what to do but finaly [sic] consented he said he would be back in half and hour & they spent that time in scolding & sputtering; we was just at the highest pitch A. had just said I have a notion to say I wont go with any but Barnwell Noble & Coyad she had hardly got it said when here come Coyad with a paper for us; Mat took it & invited him in but he declined. Mat & I went up after some oil but the door was shut & could not get any hurried home to see the girls start. [Aunty] was here. When he came & it was not long till he came & a way they went leaving us alone but we went to see Mrs. C. and had a good visit then went home & studied awhile & retired We was not aware the girls were at home till morning; but they had & gave us a glowing discription [sic] of the last nights adventure When we got home form school I took a notion to have some mince pies; so I went to work & had just got it chopped when Miss Wood came & we had a very pleasant chat. Her school begins next Monday. Mat & I went to prayer meeting with Aunty last eve. We had to work today & had real good lessons too Mrs. Baker praised us lots I must stop & cypher Sat. 14 We have just had breakfast M & I got it we did not get up very early for A. was sick last night & I had to be up some she is better now says she don't know what she would do without me for I am such a good doctor It has been snowing this morning & is real muddy the meeting begins today A. has just come & says we had better wash our buff dresses so they will be clean when we got home intend to start in two weeks but it is so cold & my hand so sore I dread to begin Mon. 16th Just two months today since we began to keep house & I like it so well Alice & Mattie is working today so Mat and I can be ladies They have got breakfast ready so imust stop & eat Well I have “dined very hearty on the wing of a lark” Mat was reading in the S. S. paper & Mattie said she did not believe what she read & Alice sided with her as usual They are about alike & if we don't agree with them they say we are so contrary & don't believe we love them a bit Yesterday we could not get them to go to meeting or S. S. We attended both & staid to sacrament when we got home they had tea ready & when we got the work done it was time for evening meeting We supposed they would go this time but they would not I tried to get Alice to go with me but she would not unless Mattie went or their beaux come after them She has not been any place with me since we come here If Mattie don't go she wont But we went & had been there only a few moments when here they come We had such a good time all day I thought I would so live that the next communion I could go forward with a light heart to the altar but I know not what that time may bring forth or that I may witness another such a scene Later I have just come from school Alice & Mattie have not recited yet & Mat stopped at Mrs. Fords her daughter is very sick We have an invite to go to Mr. Browns this afternoon so will not have time Tues. Nov. 17 [1863] We went to Mr. Browns about 4 oclock & had such a good time Mrs. Browns so cleaver [sic] she got us some books & her little girl to play with while she attended to her housework The time passed very pleasantly The Proff. Did not come till quite late & in a few moments tea was ready We did not stay very late & the moon shone bright so our walk was pleasant & we arrived safe at home well pleased with our visit The girls all run over to Mr. Cozads & left me to make a fire as I went to whittleing & cut my thumb real bad am preserving it in sugar So Alice had to come & make the fire then we had to hurry to get our lessons & it was half past 10 when we went to bed little thinking of a surprise Alice had just got a fire started when some one rapped She went to the door & who should there be but Uncle James How delighted we were to see him I guess he thought we had learned but little manners for we all talked at once & he laughed at our silliness as usual He could not stay long but had to go on to Iowa C. Our lessons today were about as usual Dear me I have been to the office & got three letters Once from Sister H. & they want me to come up there this week to begins school so I can not go home first as I expected & one from home that they will be after us next week & ma will be so disappointed but I suppose “it is all for the best” imagine I will have a good time up there all alone Fri. Nov. 20th /63 Well here I am at sister H. & little J. standing by me talking as fast as he can & I am trying to write but have so much to say don't know where to begin so guess will begin with Wednesday I went so school as usual & when I told the Proff. of my going away he was surprised & said I must call on them before I went I was very busy first packed my trunk & then dressed to calling went to Mrs. Browns & then to Mrs. Fords Prene was better then to the P.O. & the stage agent & paid my fare When we got home the girls were eating they said that the Messrs Groutham were coming that evening We had just began to sudy [sic] when they came The evening passed quickly & their brother came after them They bid me adieu & left & so passed the day & when the morning dawned I was to leave them all & go far away to my western home When I awoke the next morn found it was raining & it would not be so pleasant riding as I had anticipated but nevertheless I would have to go. So I prepared to go with a light heart often pausing to ask them if there were going to cry or if they would feel bad when I went away Just to hide my real feelings We lingered long at the breakfast table as it was the last for a long time together & it was nearly 10 when the stage come I had bid the neighbors good by & waited a long while with bonnet & shawl for the stage was late I then bade the girls a hasty farewell & entered the stage & was soon whirled away from the pleasant home Tears spring to my eyes as I look for the last time as the girls watched me from the door There were but two passengers to ST. C. & then two more ladies got in We arrived at Winterset about 3 oclock I went to Uncles but no one home but Maty Aunt had gone out to tea I had some thing to eat & a few words with Maty & was away again About 7 we stoped [sic] & got supper Got to Fon [sic] at 1 & here at 3 ½ I was the only Passenger from F. They were awake & Gort got up & made a fire & I eat a few bites of bread & meat & went to bed glad to rest after the fatigues of the day When I awoke the family were astir & little J was wondering whose bonnet & shawl was on his bed & how I came there The babe was by me laughing I arose & helped get breakfast did not do any thing all day but sit around & talk Sun. Nov. 22/63 I awoke early this morning & took a walk. It was very pleasant The dog & cat accompanied me When I got a little way I knelt down & prayed for the first time since I left home When I got back they were all up I read the late paper & then dressed the baby had just finished when the Director come he is a dutch bach he eat breakfast with us & talked a blue streak all the time I helped do up the work & then thought would write some but had so many letters did not know which to ans. first Yesterday went to Fontanell & got a certificate for 8 months It was very cold H. went as far as Mr. Searses Sat. Nov. 28 [1863] Dear me here it is Sat. night & I am so tired but we are nearly through H. has been baking pies & is going to make cake We have been washing & I have done part the ironing It has been a week since I have written but could not take time & it was so cold G. took me most every morning It is 1 ½ ms. from here What a responsible situation it is to teach When I got there Mon. morning & saw my scholars I trembled for fear I would not teach a good school They are most of them large boys older than I am But we all get along first rate Wrote to the girls & sent them $5 also to ma but have not sent it wonder how they get along this cold weather G. has been to fix the house today the windows were broken O I had such a good ride on Kate last night from the bridge It is so nice & cozy here now for they have put the carpet down I got a letter from brother O. he is still at Little Rock have not heard from any other soldier for a long time I expect they have all either forgotten or forsaken me “Well done” there I left this on the bureau & mabe [sic] H. has read it; she wont tell wheather [sic] she has or not Mon. 30 [Nov. 1863] Just one week since I entered upon my new duties It seems so curious to be boss of so many large boys had only a few today & they came late so I was late home They want me to teach writing school but I talk of buying a watch & guess have an hour a day for writing O. well Gort makes so much fuss of our dirty feet I have to stop & wash them for he has brought the water on purpose he says he has been fifing around all day helping Henry fix his smokehouse Fri. Dec. 4th [1863] Finds me enjoying myself hugely A great deal has happened this week had only a few scholars for it was so pleasant they had to work I wore my hat today for the first time Went down at noon & helped Mrs. Jones tie comforts was there Sat night & staid a long time H. was there all day Josh has got the ague [sic] I took him some rosin this morning he bought my Arithmetic for 25 cts The other night H. & I was pulling off Gorts boots & we pulled him around so much his back has been lame every since & last night the colt run away with him & hurt him again he has been bothering me about turning Nicks horse loose he come here after some flour & his horse got loose & he had to walk home I got a letter from Alice today she was still at Ia. Also two from Wm. Have not heard from him before for about two months I have been reading them to Gort & Huldah they did not give them to me for a long time We intend to go to Mr. Browns tomorrow if it is pleasant I want to get acquainted with the school ma'am there Dec. Wed. 9th [1863] We went as expected over to Mr. B Did not get started till about 10 & then had to stop so many times did not get there till about 12 The school ma'am was washing & I sat there a long time thinking was not going to have any visit at all & I got so hungry for did not eat hardly any breakfast It was little after 1 when she came in & amply made up for lost time for we talked about schools, examinations, soldiers & so the afternoon passed very quickly & did not have tea till dark G. come while we were eating we staid about an hour & then started home it was a pleasant drive & I sang nearly all the way It was late & the house so chilly but we soon had a bright fire & warmed up It being Sat. I had a number of things to do but not knowing what to do first finally went to bed without doing any thing Sunday was pleasant but no meetings to go to so spent it in reading singing & writing to Dida & Wm. It was so pleasant we did not think of it storming but it began about 5 oclock & kept on till school time & what should I do Go I must & so I got ready to start when Gort came in & said he would take me so the horses were soon at the door & I mounted How quear [sic] I did look with hs old hood on & a skirt to keep me dry but away we went but accidents will happen to the best of us & so it proved to me for we had got but a little way when the horse slipped the saddle turned & what next xx Guess I wont tell but Gort had a good laugh at me & said I fell off Let that be as it may it was not long before all was right & away we went on to school & the day passed pleasantly to us if it did rain Gort came for me & bothered me a considerable about riding kit. & thought it was Kate Tues. I rode kit alone Mr. Jones rode her back & helped them butcher I stopped at Joneses at night & they coaxed me to stay for it was so muddy I did so & helped tie comforts When I arose this morning it was 4 oclock & the boys were up & had a nice fire in the chimney We had quite a debate about the great men did not any of us beat It was very muddy to walk home tonight but arrive in due time “Sakes alive” Gort has been helping Huldah squeeze the lard & has come & rubbed it over my face & is now laughing at my looks I told him did not intend to wash it off till morning. Sat. Dec. 12 [1863] The weeke [sic] is past a days work done & I am so tired H. & I have washed all day & have just brought in the clothes & hung them around the room for it is snowing some H. is getting ready for bed but I must write a little I got a letter from Dida & Lizza it was written the 3d L: [?] was satying with Dida while Ret [?] went after Alice & was expecting them the next day Ma sold 3 hogs for $18 & I guess they get along real well O I wont have to make up for the week at the Institute so will be home a week sooner It seems as if I am doubly blessed & yet so unworthy If I could only live more devoted how much good I could do O why is human mind so low O why is human nature so unthankful I have engaged to teach writing school here awhile for 5 cts a night per scholar I must surely write to Mat next week she will think we have all forsaken her for Mattie has gone home too Fred C. has cut his foot so he cannot come to school Dec. 14/63 The boys were talking today about a sight in the air seen by several men It was a real moonlight night & about 10 oclock a great multitude of soldiers with the stars & stripes arose in the east & marched over & sank in the west leaving a red path in about 8 hours the flag arose alone in the west & went back the same path & sank in the east & the red line with it If it is really true it must have a great meaning but what that meaning is I cannot interpret I have ripped my debage [sic] dress up to make me a skirt sent by Gort to get cotton & lining but he forgot it O yes we have got a turkey It is past 10 I must retire Mon. Dec. 14 This morning dawned cold & clear The holy sabbath the day of rest has passed & now comes the busy day of work To school I must go cold or no cold so at the usual hour I got ready (& that was before breakfast for it was late when we got up) & the brisk walk brought the roses to my cheeks & found a good fire There are no scholars today but Josh. & Cyntha Mr. Cears is thrashing Have postponed writing school for it is so cold After my morning devotions were over I wrote two or three letters don't know as it was right but guess wont do it again Hulda has put short clothes on the baby Mon. Dec. 21, [1863] I will now begin back a week I was at school when I wrote that When I started home stopped at Mr. Joneses to get Polly to come home with me but her mother was away so she could not go In a few moments here come Josh with the horses to take me home It was a good horse & saddle & I anticipated a pleasant ride but was doomed to disappointments for as we were going full tilt the girth broke & as a natural consequence I fell off but was not hurt & he tied the girth & we went on as if nothing had happened & by the time were got there the roses were thicker than ever on my cheeks We had writing school Tues. eve I went up to Mr. Cearses to tea & Annie went back with me & I dismissed before 1 oclock It was snowing & quite cold wedn. morning & snowed all day I started home at night they tried to get my to stay it was so stormy but I thought it it [sic] would be funny to walk home in the light snow so on I went & surprised them when I got there The storm increased during the night & in the morning the snow was drifted so Gort could not get his horses out to take me to school so I staid at home & by the next it had cleared off but colder than before Gort had to borry [sic] a shovel to get his horses out & by that time it was so late I could not go that day & by the next the great storm had passed The greatest had been known for more than 10 ys. it delayed the mails & I was disappointed in getting letters I have not heard from home but once since I come here don't see why they don't write Heard there is a budget at town for me hope my flannel dress is in it Gort has gone to Lewis to mill so H. & I have to stay alone Wed. 23 [1863] I am now at school but have nothing to do while the scholars cypher They are mostly large boys today John Stinman has been here all this week he has got hurt so has to go on crutches It is quite cloudy as if it would snow I hope Gort will come home today for hate to do the chores Dec. Wed. 30 [1863] “Dear me” I have such a time trying to keep a journal don't write but once a week for am so busy lately & my eyes are sore so cant write evenings But tody [sic] have only 3 scholars & will write a little here but will begin back to write about christmas Well Thurs. I got my budget it was my dress some yarn & other things I had to fix my dress before could wear it & sat up till 12 ½ before I finished it & then I woke Gort to wish him “merry Christmas” & went to bed but had hardly got to sleep when it was time to get up for I had to press it & lots to do fore school when “lo & behold” it was raining & I would get it “siled” but I wore it any way & when I got to Joneses there were a dozen or less & they all hallowed “Christmas gift” before I could think but all went up to school together. They made many threats of resisting my authority that day but when I rapped for order all was quiet till noon Then they began to pile the benches in one corner & said they were going to have a dance Steven & Fred said if I would let them do as they were a mind to the afternoon they would be good all winter so I consented for we had been real steady all the winter so we staid there till 3 & then all left for home & it was very wet & muddy & I was so tired when I got home Sat. I quilted my skirt we had but one thimble so I used it & Huldah done the other work did not get it done till 1 Sunday was cold & nothing unusual happened it was quiet & spent mostly in reading O how I do long for home at such times & to meet with the people there but that will be nearly 4 long months yet Got a letter from Alice she had been home two weeks also one from Mr. Stewart & one from Wm. He sent me a present of some love verses wonder if he loves me wonder what he would thought if he had seen me Mon. eve when Wesley was taking me home with his sleigh Said he would brought me the other cold night but did not get there in time he wanted me to go to the N. Years dance at Fon. But I declined Wed. I got there before the fire was made & Thurs. O what a cold day it was the coldest we have had this winter I walked to school Steven said if I come down that day I ought to be sent back Tomorrow is N. Years Mon. 1864, Jan. 4 Am now at school Gort brought me & just went away It is about 9 but no one has come yet It is so cold & snowy don't expect many will come today I feel “trifling & no account” this morning for have been quite unwell for two or three days I got so very cold last week for several days & have hardly got warm yet I just managed to worry along till Frid. Night and hardly knew how I would get home at all & thought if I staid at Joneses again I would freeze sure I had just said “dismissed “ when here come Wesley with his sleigh he offered to take me home & I was so glad of the chance & O what a good ride we had Gort and Huldah were awful tickled to see me & find I had not frozen but notwithstanding their warm room I sat and shivered all the evening The next day I wanted to go to town with Gort but was not able so did not do much & Sunday my eyes were too sore to read much & to [sic] hoarse to sing so I had happened to get homesick would not had any way to cure it Jan. 1864 Thurs. 7 While I was writing the other day the scholars came & I had to begin the duties of the day & all passed nicely through the day Gort came after me & I had a nice ride on kit It was quite cold The next eve it was late when I dismissed & Wes. did not have time to take me but neglecting to tie his horses they started after me but I did not notice them till I got a little way I turned and stopped them till he came up so he said he would take me home as the horses wanted to go so bad but we did not get home till sundown We had sleighbells that night as he drove to the door run over Gorts wagon tongue & broke it but Gort said he would rather make three tongues as to went after me & now he would fix his sled When Wes. came the next day he wanted to know what Gort said about the tongue We had a little skirmish at school Joshua got a contrary streak on about reading but I gave him to understand I was teacher & it soon passed but it made me real home sick but they were so good today have got over it It was the first disturbance & I hope it will be the last I stopped & eat supper at Mr. Joneses As I went home met Nick he had lost his ax & going back to find it he came back presently with it & stopped & eat supper O such writing as this is I have to stop writing to laugh at Gort I am trying to learn him to write & of all the odd speeches he makes says he wants to work as if he was shoveling snow he takes hold of the pen like it was a pitch fork thinks he can most beat I want to go to town Sat: but fraid G. will not have the sled done Mon. 11th (1864) Have just come from school & must rest a minute We did not go to town for was expecting Mr. Browns folks About 11 we saw a team coming & supposed it was them but it happened to be a man who passed along without thanking us for taking so much notice of him Gort & I had a scuffle for the lounge & I lost my net & could not find it Told him & he said guessed he burnt it that morn or something looked like so I gave it up for gone & set down to make another finished it about 8 then sewed up my shoe then ironed held the baby & other things while Huldah made mince pies baked bread got supper & e At length all was completed & I went to bed at 10 leaving H. mending socks We did not arise next morning till 7 & the first thing I heard was Gort going to Neb. to live & having Dels folks go too I don't think I would like to go but Huldah said she would rather go than have Gort drive stage After breakfast Gort said he wanted to try his sled & was going to town I told him be sure & hurry back for was expecting letters & a watch had sent to the Tcr. P. (?) for one by Mr. Gibbs So about 5 here he come I supposed of course he would come right in if he had any thing for me & waited a long time then looked out & there he was out to the barn doing chores & I had nothing to do but wait so I tried to calm my impatience by singing & playing with the baby In about an hour he came in with wood & said nothing about letters & went after more I knew it would do no good to ask him so in a long time he said he had two letters for me but he must read them first but I knew he wouldn't so I kept mum & pretended I did not care so he soon gave them to me One was from Dida She said Mr. Pearson was buried Christmas& one from Alice they have got the hogs killed & are weaving Mrs. Duell begins school there today Gort brought my watch It is real beauty hunters case cost $17 he says the Inst. begins next Mon. Guess I will go. Well I have written a letter to Anga & the song “gay & happy” for John S. & here it is past 10 Fri. Jan 15th (1864) It is now Fri we had such a good time today the scholars were uncommon good I staid at Mr. Jones with Polly she has been sick is better now set up till 12 When I went down to dinner Mrs. Jones set me to hemming Henry's black silk neck handkerchief When I went back to school found a paper at the window “no come in” & the door fastened I looked in the window & there sat the boys as contented as you please the benches all piled in one corner I rapped at the door one of them opened it & introduced me to their new school rooms but it was school time & I had to spoil their fun so they arranged the benches Gort had been to town & came by & I rode home Got a letter from brother O he had been from duty that day for the first time for two yrs I staid at Mr. Cearses a few nights ago O the baby has got two teeth I sent two letter to town by Gort & he forgot to leave them they were to go to Grand river he says he expects I will have to board at the hotel next week but I don't want to I will stop & wash the dishes Sat. 16 (Jan. 1864) I have just finished a letter to Covain Anulte (?) & it is nearly 11 oclock I have been working all day to get ready for the Institute Huldah went down to see Polly & I staid with the children finished my net & put pockets in my dresses for my watch & made some hair oil out of Becks foot marrow Our folks will be disappointed tonight & wont get my letters but Gort says they can laugh twice when they know the reason Jan. 17 I am now at Fontanell have come over to attend the Inst. but Gort said I hadn't better go over today for there was no one but men there It is snowing some & as I am a stranger to all am glad to stay here & perhaps Miss Raulston will be here by tomorrow We stopped for her but she was not ready & said she would come in the hack tonight I am at Miss Roots & will stay the week She is helping Gort fix up a bedstand & her little girl (my namesake) is stand here by me Huldah & Gort said this morning they did not know how they would get along this week for me to laugh at but I gave them to understand that they would not always have me so they had better be careful what they said Tues. 19 (Jan. 1864) I have got up & ready for school but it is not time to go so I can write awhile Last eve I was as lonely as could be when Mr. Martin came & paid me $20 & that helped me a good deal so I put on my things & went to the store to spend it Paid $12 on my watch got me a debage (?) dress & a few notions & had $6 left I watched eagerly for the stage for was afraid Miss Raulston would not come but she did about dark & I felt better & had a good visit before time to go to the Inst. There was a crowd there & had organized Mr. Ewing Pres. Mr. Rult (?) Vice pres. Mr. Patterson Sec. We sang three pieces then the question “Permanent teachers” was discussed by Messrs. Francis Doughty (?) & Morris at a proper time we adjourned & went home found Mrs. Root abed but the candle was burning & I had to sleep alone in another room Wed. 20 Jan. (1864) When we got to the Sem. found only a few there but it was time & the performance began First singing we learned several beautiful pieces Next Written arithmetic I learned some things I had never thought of Afternoon we had Geograph & Mental Arithmetic Proff. gave one example & a young man named Brown solved it The second all missed but me then all of the praise “There said he how much better she looks out of her eyes” all eyes were turned to me & I blushed like a school girl but something took their attention & it was soon forgotten We did not go home to dinner Evening First singing then a lecture “Science & happiness” of ¾ an hour then subject of “Parents and teachers” by Patterson & Armstrong then Mr. Doughty sang the “Death of Warren” & “Kingdom coming” he is a splendid singer & then adjoured O I gave ? to help get the preacher a neck tie & so (?) for a book A load or two came from Kevin today & expect some from Lewis tonight Maggie & I are highly honored being appointed as critics & on the com. of resolutions & I am the best scholar here yet We teachers have to read select pieces the last eve Thurs. Jan. 21 (1864) We arose a little earlier this morning for we wanted to go to the store before 8 oclock for we committee had to meet at 8 There were no one at Gibbses yet so went to Mr. B. but he did not have any thing we wanted but a spool of thread then we started post hast for the Sem. but was surprised to find no one there but was a good fire & soon the rest come & the day passed as usual. After tea we went to see Mrs. Willson found her quite poorly from there to the Sem. The house was nearly full all enjoying themselves extremely well but I was lonely I had no dear friend to laugh & chat with I wandered into the dressing room & found a lady there as lonesome as myself so we soon become acquainted She was a lady from Nevin & expecting her friends that eve & they soon come The exercises soon began First was a lecture by Mr. Atkins Subject The national affairs which lasted half an hour Then debte “how much time to devote to pupils out of class recitation” then ajourned. Fri. 22 (Jan. 1864) It is now the last day of the Inst. yes friday has come at last what a long week it has been Proff. Haws was explaining cube root when we got there so we did not hear it Maggie went to the hotel to dinner & I intended to go home but Jane wanted me to stay with her but I soon saw her going with the rest to the hotel but I staid with three other ladies & passed the time quite pleasant reading & singing It was a qr to 8 when the company got back so late could not do much till evening. When we got to Mr. Roots they said Huldah & Gort had come Gort wanted to know if I was ready to go home I told him no not till about 11 oclock So he said he would take us to the Sem. in the sleigh so here come the sleigh & we all piled in The house was crowded & we took our places on the rostrum to sing Then the reading & I was the first one & they all said I did nobly Gort said I did the best of any Then more singing & more reading so the evening passed & we dismissed about 10 I had to stop at Mr. Roots to pay my board which was 1,50 & get my things then we started for home It was a beautiful evening the moon shone so bright & quite warm Joneses boys overtook us by the grove & wanted to race so Gort whipped up Anaway we went but the traces unhitched & the horses & Gort went on but the boys got out & helped him & soon had them rited but we did not run any more races Tues. 26, Jan. 1864 It was rather late when we got up Sat. but we must wash any way so we hustled around & got done about 8 oclock Then Huldah said Josie Sears was sick so I got ready to go see him Went and got Kit to ride and found the little fell very sick with the break bone fever, they called it & he was so glad to see Miss E. as he called me Staid about an hour then started but Kit was contrary & would not let me get on till Mr. Sears came out & held her he said was afraid she would run away with me but she did not Gort came out & took her & said my feller had come & went in & found Henry & he staid till bed time Sunday Gort & Huldah went to Mr. Searses & I kept the children They just got home when Nick come & he staid & staid Gort & I went over to the [?] a horseback to meeting & left him here There wasn't any so we had to paddle back We were gone just two hours & you bet we were tired for it was so muddy & slipery [sic] Nick was still here & I wanted to go so bad but no I couldn't After a while Henry came & they finally went away Morning come far too soon for my sleepy eyes The scholars all come Josie was better It was nearly 4 when Gort stopped to leave Kit for me to ride home so I got along safe & dry Then worked on my jacket till bed time I made a fire & got breakfast while Huldah done the chores for Gort had gone to rent a farm then walked to school & back It was real muddy Huldah has been making candles have got 11 dozen made We expect Gort tonight hope he will bring some letters Sat. Jan. 30th I was surprised yesterday when one of my scholars called it Fri, for the week passed so quickly but sure enough it was & today is Sat. I washed my woolen dress this morning & then finished a net for Mrs. Willson Miss Snell came today At tea time Gort & Miss Snell come they had been fixing the school house I intended to teach but they wanted to fix it & felt so happy last evening for I thought I was having such a good school When Gort come after me, he said the superintendent was coming to visit my school for Mr. Sears had been to see him because I let the scholars make so much noise at intermission & it had got to be stopped or the school would & told him I was ready for either & will try it two more weeks & then if they are not satisfied I will stop & go home I am not afraid of their for I don't feel guilty but what would I do without my heavenly Father to go to I often ask myself that question when any cloud comes over my sky or loneliness steals around Got a letter from Dida The scarlet fever is around these Mr. Scotts buried two children in one coffin Several of the young folks have joined the Methodist. How it brought to mind the meeting of last spring I will never forget it as long as season remains I think of it when lonely it comforts me & when I am not it makes me rejoice. Fri. Feb. 5th 1864 Well here I am again with my book & paper to write I have got the supper on to cook & set down to write the “happenstances” of the last week It made me think of what ma often told us “she could never get time to sit down while cooking” but here I am anyway The the [sic] supper has cooked sooner than I expected & this will have to wait The tea is over dishes washed & all fixed up in school ma'am style & I am ready to proceed Gort had the toothache & Sunday morning he started post haste for Lewis to get it drawn I went down to get Mr. Snell to do the chores I just got back & ready to read when here come Henry & after a while Ben came & they staid & staid & kept staying I was so provoked but after awhile it began to snow & they finally went away Huldah done the chores & about 7 we went to bed I got up at 5 for had to press my dress I made me sweat but it showed the work Huldah said it show like silk Went to school & found the room more comfortable than usual I told the scholars what I had heard about the school & asked them what we should do They all said “ we will do any thing you want us too but the school shall not be stopped if they could hinder it” In the afternoon Henry come in (he is the director) & staid till recess I was anxious to know what he thought of us At night Ben said he would bring me home for it was so muddy so Henry rode with us Gort had not come from Lewis so Henry chopped wood Ben the other chores Gort come about 6 & felt better He said it was Sears & Henry got up the fuss because the boys sang union songs & they are copperheads It was about as I expected got a letter from Wm. & a real nice silk bandana in it Also a letter from Ben Bonham Well I have worked at the Conneticut [sic] rurle [?] for the first time you are getting pretty smart had better go to bed it is most 12 oclock Well good night Tues. 9th Feb. [1864] Well here we are all alone Huldah the children & myself & have been for two days Gort has sold Kit Kate & Charley put the money in his pocket and left for parts unknown without even saying good by [sic] Well we are getting along nicely expect he will stay away as long as possible so we will be more tickled to see him We get along real well at school intend to teach Saturdays too so to have it out sooner It will take till the last day of march in the afternoon at that I got a letter from Mat she said James had reenlisted I wrote to him last wekk Gort has not been to [?] get more have no heard from them I must stop & make my new dress have not begun it yet March 5th Almost a month since I wrote last & here I still all primed up with my new dress on & what is it all for Well Henry & Steve was here when I got home & are out now helping Gort fight fire It come on the west side the field the wind changed to the north & it has not done much damage I was out prospecting a while ago What a beautiful night but terrible if in its power I have only four more weeks of school What a happy day when I return home after 7 long months absence I sent to have them engage the school there for me I got a letter from Mary Bonham & her mother how good it seemed to hear from them Didas girls have had the scarlet fever very light & Angie & Mary two of Macks children died Gort has been down there Alice was sick & had no school for a week she teaches at Osborns Ma sent Huldah & I each a woolen sheet E. Stewart has enlisted & Ann has got a span of horses Gort bought two old horses & a colt but sold the colt again I went to Searses & staid till dark last evening & had a nice walk home alone I don't have many scholars the boys stay out to work Are going to have Section Mon. We all went over to Fon. To an exhibition last Fri. had just got nicely a going & it began to thunder & rain so we left supper & all & come home Got a letter from E. Barker today March 15th I hurried home tonight to write some letters but thought I would scribble a little in this first for have neglected it so long The fire burned so many rails Gort has concluded to leave here He has rented Mr. Gibbs farm at Fontanell I am so glad of it I got a letter from Dida which contained [?] Shall I call it bad news that our little Mary has gone to be an angel in Heaven That she has been called home from sickness sin & pain that she is free from the follies & vices of this world to bloom in everlasting beauty & happiness no indeed May we be resigned to His will whatever it may be but darling it is hard to give you up I could not realize it at first & more than once I found myself repeating “little Mary dead” “has Mary gone” “Will I not see her again here?” “Poor lone Angie & what will her pa do” is it possible” & my heart would answer “yes it is all true” all things are possible with Him & he will strengthen us all to bear our loss She would been 8 yr old tomorrow Last Fri was the last day of Miss Rawlston school she had a spelling at night We all went over & had a real good time I went with Annie I guess we will have one the last night A man by the name of Carns over in Adams Co. shot & killed a man <union soldier> by the name of Prather about a week ago he was arrested & kept in town till yesterday a mob of 15 soldiers home on vet furlough came & took him away to the woods & hung him he did not die quick enough so they shot him I have got all my school money $73 have spent the rest Gort has gone to Whitneys Got a letter from Mattie it was real good We are going to have chicken for supper I stopped & took tea with Mrs. Snell last eve Sun. Mar. 27 Today is Easter It is very pleasant but the wind blows hard from the South I just come from Jones staid there last night had a spelling O I had such a surprise a week ago I went over to a spelling with Annie & when she was coming home with me we saw a woman coming & wondered who it could be & on neared approach here it was Mattie S. I was so surprised but more so when she said Mat and James Dorrance & Alice were all here They came the night before We met them but did not know them O what a good time we had Gor killed the turkey & Alice & James got the wishbone but forgot it on the table So Mattie & I found it & broke then they were mad to us It was which & tether who got ahead in mischief Guess we did not any of us think of the 4th commandment Annie started home about & I went a piece with her. The next morning was cold & snowy from the East I waited to ride down with them so I was late found a warm room & scholars waiting It kept snowing all day Next Sat. is the last day of school I have sent for ma to come after me Gort will move the last of the week I have a brand new brass ring awful nice a present. April 18th, 1864 O dear here I am so tired & have to write the happenstances for a month I will begin back & enumerate them. Well according to former arrangements we ha a spelling Friday eve most all from the other grove came over We had an excellent time The next day was the last one then I was to bid adieus to those for nearer and dearer [?] The afternoon passed by reading & singing Gort come & said about an hour then I had to dismiss & the superintendant [sic] did not come to see us Steve pretended he was awful worry & took on woefully & we all felt bad had had a good time together Good by my five months school. I had a nice ride on a load of hay they were moved except that we met several teams going to Idaho but I was going home after seven months absence the longest I was ever away We found ma Alice Steuart & the children there & you bet we talked a blue streak I went to church at night it was raining some In the morning the rain had turned to snow Josie stopped for me to go to meeting again. Mr Badly preached a real good sermon Gort tried to persuade us not to start home Mon. but I was so impatient to go coaxed ma to start & we got along nicely Got home about 5 oclock. I strained my eyes to catch a glimpse of the settlement but it had not changed & the house stable & yard all the same as I had left The time had seemed so long to me I looked for ever thing to be different Alice and Eliza met us at the gate they had staid alone The rooms looked odd at first but soon grew familiar hey had been to supper & had to get us some They said there was a soldiers supper that evening at J. Cravens & Eliza wanted me to go with her but I did not want leave home that quick so she got Alice S. to go with her The boys were most all home on Vet. furlough & would start back Fri The girls come home sometime in the night for were here in the morning After breakfast we went to washing & ma went over to Anns Will W. come home with Eliza & Willis with Alice we found out that day Wednes. We had to iron Vet come & brought us some letter I got one from Thornbrue he said he had been home & got married funny aint it Ma come home & told us we had better get ready & ride over to Angies with Vet & go from there to the Soldiers supper at Uncle Beasons So we hustled around & started We found Dida & children there & how good it did seem to see them all again. We staid till three oclock & then went on & found a goodly company already there How natural they all looked & the table looked so nice a flag at each end & the cakes & other things were so tempting They waited awhile for Steuart but finally began eating without him but they soon come the supper was at 4 & it was after dark before all were done eating Then the dishes & table were hustled away & the program changed The people went away a few at a time About 10 we all got ready to go but the girls persuaded us to stay for it had been raining all the evening. They fixed beds for the old and little ones & they soon were out of our way & we staid up all night singing & talking & a good time generally In the morning the boys laughed at our red eyes but they were no better off After breakfast we bade the soldiers adieu for they were to start that day to the army again Willis & Charly C with the others It is now two weeks since they left Friday we went to Winterset with Steuarts It rained all day Got dinner at Penn's then went to [?] found them well The next morning it had not stopped raining yet but we had to go up own to trade some & see Steuart start but he had gone when we got there & it was very muddy so we staid till the next day then [?] went across the river with us for the rains had raised it Stopped at Johnsons & got dinner It was meeting time when we got to Hearty's so Eliza & I got out & went to meeting & then went to Didas Monday we all went to Mr Macks & staid till meeting & then went to meeting & then come home Heard at church that Jas. Wright has the Spotted fever Wedn. no better than thurs. about 11 he died They call it Congestion of the brain now I attended the funeral O what a change from the scene a week before Fri I went to the last day of the winter term of school O I have been to Mr Lewises to engage the the [sic] school is the reason I am so tired went afoot he is to let me know Sun. Vets. & his sister June & man had been here while I was gone Ma has gone to Aunt Mary's expect her home tomorrow May 3rd Alice went to Fon. To be inspected & Huldah came home with her Ma has gone over to Angies with her I went to Winterset with Adams but have not got my certificate or school either am about out the notion of teaching I got Alice such a pretty hat black trimmed with blue high crown left mine to be fixed Our Sabbath school began last Sunday Mr Bonham [?] I have my class again Sat. May 15th Well here I sit primed up in my new dress & silk bandana (my present from Wm) showing Eliza how I will look tomorrow if I go to S.S. [?] We are here alone Ma went away this morning & is not home yet Ray has gone to the P.O. I am real tired we have been cleaning house & then made a flower bed & had to carry dirt I told a neighbor I was bringing the cornfield up in the yard so I would not have to go so far to tend it We have just tried the new stove I bought of Mr. Swell It is a parlor cook stove It needs a new back lining The teachers name is Miss Young that teaches in our district. Tues. 18th We are here alone again Ma has gone to O. W. Barkers Columbus died this morning with scarlet fever his little sister was buried last week Monday & Mrs. Barker is real sick O Savior we thank thee for the health thou hast blest us with & may sufficient grace be given to those you have stricken I got my hat it looks real nice We planted our cane [?] today but have not got our flowers planted yet I heard the 100 day men are to start today. Tues. 24th Another week has rolled round & another leaf has been turned in the book of time also another page added to the pages of history & a funny one it is in our history Well Sund I went to Sabbath school & Eliza went to Osborns to meeting I had just got home when Mr. Jessup came over to get Jack to drive to Wintersett & said some of us could go if we wanted to We had some butter to take and ma said one of us had better go Eliza didn't want to & so I went over that night for they wanted to start early It was not sunrise the next day when we started & so cool & beautiful We got to town about 1 & staid around till about 4 before we started home I got me a pink lawn dress a bed tick & Eliza some shoes did not get home till after dark The children soon began to tell about a man ( I have just got to my story now) who had been there & wanted to get married he asked where there were any girls lived they told him several places & showed him our house so over he come to see Eliza & wait for me to come home but he fell in love with Eliza and proposed right away but she wasn't in favor of sich [?] he helped Roy plant corn & worked all day staid all night & waited very patiently for me to come & finally had to go off without seeing me O wasn't I glad but Ma & Roy has been letting all day what he said and of all the siblings Eliza left this morn before he got up & went over to Vets to help Dida But we will have our fun with her when she comes back Well I must go and plant corn. Mon, 30th This evening the wind blows cool from the south west The sun is hurrying to its western home & throws a slanting shade on the broad prairies dressed in green & all nature looks happy I too enjoy the beautiful scene although I am alone but am expecting Eliza home from school Ma & I have been picking wool but finished & started it to the machine Vet is going to take it Octavo wrote we need not write to him any more for his is about out I went over & helped Angie shear their sheep last Fri & washed the wool Sat. in the afternoon the bees swarmed & we all run out to hive them One stung Angie & she run to the house & we laughed at her Presently one bit me & so I run but Granmother stood firm I went back to help her after while & they finally surrendered Their loss about a dozen killed, ours three wounded Angie gave them to ma Then we picked wool awhile then went to the P.O. Got 4 letters & some papers One from Alice she is teaching at Greenfield I had to read the lesson & hymn at Sabbath school yesterday Mr. Roland come by & invited us to a woolpicking tomorrow Guess we will go Jun Mon. 6th Well this old maid has found a moment leisure after the days work to let her thoughts ramble as they will & her hands nothing to do but pen them on paper It is wash day & had company too We went to the river to wash come back & found Angie & Ann here They just gone home & Roy with them They are going to town tomorrow I have been sewing on my new dress There is some prospects of a storm We went to the woolpicking & had a real good time then went home with Angie the next day went to drop corn for Vet worked only till noon & helped Dida in the afternoon Went to see Dell Jessup & got dinner Fri and Sat we all went to another picking at Aunt Patsy's & a jolly time we had I got another letter from Thornbrue It was as good as ever Heard that Willis is sick at the hospital Poor fellow how lonely he will be Angie is Sanitary Committee wants me to go round the Tp. With her must write to Alice this week June 1864, Mon. 27th Here I got up before the rest thinking I would have a good time writing but have been choring round so long they have all got up now It is raining & seems so good for have not had a good shower for near two months till last Wed. The crops are very backward We had to replant our corn finished last Thurs. Our wheat looks good I rode all the week hunting our sheep & found all but one heard it was at Hasty's and finally got it. Alice was at home two weeks ago Mr. Myres brought her Dida was here I got dinner then all went & took her home & got the mail Vets keep the P.O. I got a letter from Wm. & one from Cousin Alic [?] with his photo in it both were well & on the march as usual Sun. we all went to meeting it was longer than usual did not get back till after two then we had to hustle around to get dinner for Alice & Myers to start back We have been making fence around the garden is not quite done. O “we'uns” [?] went up to Adams Co. last week Ann sent word that they were gong & some of us could if we wanted to So they were all good enough to let me go We started from here about 7 & had the best time singing & talking & the buggy ride was nice too We saw Alice's school house & wished we could see her but it was 10 ms. or more Our road was not settled much till we come to Nevin ( a yankee colony) We made all manner of fun of it for it looked so funny without fence & so far from timber We stopped in a grove & fed & lunched then about 12 ½ oclock we started on the rest of the journey was pleasanter for was settled more Got there at half past 4 a surprise party indeed A jolly time we had laughing talking & eating till we got so lazy we most wished it time to go home although we enjoyed it real well for we found plenty to talk about & saw the girls fellows pictures new hats dresses & [?] The second eve we retired early for intended to go home but when we awoke “lo & behold” it was thundering & soon began to rain We thought it would soon stop but it rained the harder till we nearly give up starting but about 8 oclock it stopped & we got ready to go They tried to get us to stay but we were nearly obliged to go It was a little slippery at first but the sun soon dried it & was pleasanter than ever Adams got us some pond lilies the first we ever saw they were so pretty so large & white & full We got home about 6 well pleased with our ride & visit I found a letter from Octavo awaiting me he expects to be home in a month he ought to have been home (crossed out) mustered [?] out the 13 of June but was not I got 4 more letters from the 4th [?] Were all well & near Atlanta marching & fighting all the time I have a new corres. Frank Smith is his name Got a letter from Alice she said they would be down to quarterly meeting next Sat. so we must be fixed Charley L. was at Sabbath school yesterday I have not spoken to him since I come home He has moved down to ward Win. I hope he has a good wife & a happy home It is Mon. & wash day of course but have got done now & will help ana drive stakes Eliza is going to Dida's tonight. April 1865 O dear what a long long time since I have written in this almost a year I have been reading some of our doings at Indianola to the folks & they were highly entertained I have just returned from Winterset where have been for 2 weeks I went there the 7 It was very cold & windy the next day had a dozen photos taken $5 In the afternoon we went on to Aunt Mary's Got there about dark Aunt was alone but Willie came before long. They hurried supper so we could go to singing [?] school had a splendid time come home eat some apples & went to bed In the morning it was snowing & awful cold but they had to go home (brother & family) & started about 10 & had to go 25 ms. I intended to stay The next day was stormy till near night then we went about three miles to meeting The next day Mat & I went to see Lore It rain Tues. & Wed. & Thurs. I watched for the stage to go to Wiss. But when it come was too full Soon a wagon stopped & they wanted to stay all night so they staid & the next morn I started with them (a man woman & baby) for Win well pleased with my visit We got to Win. about noon I asked the man what he charged for my ride He say “help some one for me when they need it” he was a Methodist Minister named Nixon There was to be a rally the next day in honor of the success of our armies We went to meeting after dinner & in the evening It was the Presbytery [?] I could not get my bonnet so had to borrow The firing began the next morning before we got up No other performance till 10 or 11 oclock then we went up the streets were crowded Saw some of the Grand River folks they said Mothers were coming but I did not see them till noon. We had good speeches by Heiger Lenard & Grey There was to be an illumination at night so I staid down & to attend meeting But about sundown the sad news “Our president is assassinated” fell like a thunderbolt upon us We could hardly believe it at first but soon the news was confirmed Our rejoicing was turned to mourning the illumination was postponed & with sad countenances & hearts the people returned home Lincoln was dead & the nation mourned he died that morning near 7 oclock Sunday was communion the flag was draped & the bells tolled an hour It was a solemn time We a Christian hand commemoration the death of our Savior & also mourning the death of our loved President. Monday was the day of national mourning The whole city was draped & the services were to be at three at the largest church every thing in the church was draped A large portrait of Lincoln hung behind the pulpit It was a solemn scene Mr Philips preached the discourse the text “Be still & know that I am God” & sermon were so appropriate The singers were so overcome that they could hardly sing the house was crowded Tues. was at Janes Wed. at Wealthys Thurs. at Uncles till noon Mat Dorrance & I went to Mr Ewings for a call It rained & we went to Janes through the mud & in the morning the ground was covered with snow It snowed & thawed all day & Fri. too & we were getting anxious to get home Sat. we hardly dared think any one would be down but up town we went to see but could find no one & poked back After dinner I went back after my bonnet & met Charly L. he got us a passage by promising to walk past way he was with a neighbor & they had some load & it was very muddy We walked from there to Steuarts they were much surprised to see us did not go to bed till 11 oclock We went to meeting the next day April 1865 It was prayer meeting Octavos folks brought us home were going to Huldahs but found her here so we loaded her in & went on had a good time some supper & got home about dark Huldah & Gort lives two ms. From here on Widow Osborns place I went over to Mr Hustys got some garden seeds & the promise of the school came by Aunt Patsy's & got some spools & posted home where I arrived just in time for dinner Alice & Mat have gone over to Octavos to stay tonight We all rec'd an invite to a soldier dinner don't know how many will go Well I am getting old yesterday I was 19 Mary present or anything else Poor old maid Vets moved to Fontanell last fall Little Rena died in Oct. with membrane croup We went up to the funeral & I staid with them several weeks They lived in the jail The deputy recorder was sick & I wrote in his place earned several dollars Eliza & Roy were sick a long time last summer or fall with the fever Octavo lives close by Hastys June 1865 I have got up and had my walk & breakfast It is rainy & wet & has been for two weeks & I have not been home for that time It is too wet to farm much I did not get the school at home & here I am at Lickskillet [?] & five weeks of school gone I like it real well has good scholars & our school house is in the brush where we can not see out I have such a good place at Mr Eppersons to board I have not got a letter from Wm for about three months I don't know why he don't write I hear that they are coming home soon Some of the soldiers are home now the [?] It is nearly the 4th wonder if I will go any place Must stop & work awhile July 5th Well here I am about as tired as I can well be for I have been to the 4th I went with Mr Steuart & we had a gay old time any way We started about 4 & did not for the delegation from our [?] for we wanted to trade some but the stores were all shut We went to Uncles & cooled awhile & then back up town The G. R. delegation done better than we expected We walked to the grove 1 ½ ms. had excellent speaking & music I knew Frank S. was there & tried to pick him out but found no one that suited me after a while decided on one & during the day Mrs. Stuart introduced him to me & sure enough it was the same one No one can imagine my feeling at that time I had been acquainted with him so long by pen but stranger in person Would give a cent to know his thoughts He has black eyes auborn hair & sandy whiskers is about middle size He intends to come up this week so of course I am some excited Had a good time singing today want to have a grand come off the last day Heard the 23rd is not coming home till their time is out Sat. July 8th O dear did any one ever have half the happenstances occur that I do Here I am at Octavos & in pretty plight too It is wet & rainy & I started home on our horse & got about half way she scared & threw me a kiting so I picked myself up & come back it was raining & I got so wet had to change my clothes & wash them so cant go home till next week Did not get any letters only from Hollan Don't know wheather the 23rd is coming home or not O Frank come up Thurs. & I went there from school to Stuarts we had a good visit I like him real well He took me to school in the morning He wants to exchange pictures Our acquaintance is so novel as Alice would express it Here comes the tub & I must go to washing Tues. 11 I had hardly got washing when here come Gort & Alice They called me Tursey [?] & made all fun of me for looking so but I kept on till I got done & then fixed up but as the dress was Angies it was so short did not look very scrumptious. Of course they had heard of Frank coming up & asked all manner of questions about him In the afternoon an awful thunder shower began & they could not go home till it was over The lightning struck Martin J's house and stunned all but hurt none About sundown they started home Had a good meeting Sunday saw Hosea J. he just come home from war It is wash day here Wed 12 School is out once more & I am at liberty for a few hours What a relief it is & I love to be with the dear children too but it worries me too We went to S. Dotys last night their little girl is quite sick Tonight is prayer meeting up at our school house how I would love to meet with them & what would I do without that friend who is ever near I find a help in every time of need & I need so much to help me in my schools Sat 16 I really don't know what to write first but it is Sat. & rainy at that so am not at home but intend to go in the morning before Sabbath school Am at Aunt Patsy's there are only 6 of us girls here & her away so a jolly time we have a talking about the boys Libs beau has gone a sheep driving & she feels down in the mouth of course & mine is in the army I expect so is Loney's & Amys is around loose I guess Did not get any letters this week The 23rd has gone to Texas Fri. 21 O how cold wet & rainy it is but I have not far to go to school & it is mail day too am so anxious to get the news & so is every one else We heard the 4th were to be mustered out tomorrow at Davenport It seems like too good news to be true I was not at home but a little while lait Sun. they were all well but not extra good humored I have had a severe cold for over a week & do not feel very [?] now but there is no excuse from duty Aug. Sat. 5th Rain rainer rainiest so it has been for the last week & all summer for that matter but today promises to be more so if possible I have to teach today for we all went up to Osborns to the last day of Alices school & such a time as we had Were afraid we couldn't go at all for had no team but the little boys (there were no large one concerned) hunted around & got one & we started Got to Mas at 10 & found her mopping the children had gone to school so we got dinner & then went on & got there just in time They met at the school house & marched to the grove & sung as they went They looked real nice Did not finish till 4 & we got some wet for it rained nearly all the way home The boys have not got home yet but rather expect they will tonight We robbed the bees this morning so we will be sweet Eva is bothering me so can hardly write she wants to see some poetry I have been writing. Aunt Patsy is coming down tonight to rob her bees & I am going to ride up with her Teams have gone to Winterset & think the boys will be there to come home I had company at school the other day The Director & three other gents it was a surprise for we did not know they were coming We had a good singing to but the director is opposed to sick in school Mon. 7th Aunt Patsy & Adam come down & robbed the bees as expected & we all went over to get some honey I held the light & the rest was all around WE got along nicely till we went to start away here come a bee at me I knocked it off & it stung Adams & it swelled so he couldn't go to S. S. It was a pleasant moonlight night We found Ann at Bierces a helping take care of the baby for they had gone to town & left it We were all anxious & excited to have them come ith the Soldiers & went to look every few minutes had nearly give up their coming when we heard them cheer three times & here they come but only three Steuart Will Wright & John Epperson It seemed so good to see them back after being gone so long It was past 12 when they got here John went on home We all wanted to talk & Ann had to get supper & it was past 3 when we went to bed & then got up at 5 & had to hurry to get to S.S. The soldiers were there & staid to singing & then all went over to Aunt Patsys to see all together (for the rest of the 4th had come out with some one else the night before) Willis is changed he is so pale poor & sober I only spoke to him once for did not want to be in his way We staid till after dinner & then went down to Eppersons but found no one there & went over to Dotys & staid awhile then Lucetta & Wilson come over with us & staid till dark Eva John & I have big times acting the dunce O a bean is coming here to dinner & I must spruce around We have got some more mutton Sat. Aug. 26 We would like to have on of you girls keep house for me Sat. said Octavo one day for we want to go to town & which of us should go Alice did not want to go Eliza did not say anything & I kept mum “There are only 7 children to take care of” said he O monstrous go & stay all day & have 7 children around & the housework to do & Alice concluded more & more she didn't want to go Well the matter was talked of & thought of & finally I concluded to go & as Gort was going with them I could ride over with him & here I come & here I am. They were eating breakfast when we got here & as it was late they hustled off & left things but I have got the work done & the children washed & combed & we are getting along nicely this far I have to bake bread & pies & am boiling beets for pickles Have to tend the P.O. to so I am a person of note & responsibility & will be perfect in housekeeping when _____ comes along School has been out two weeks & I am getting somewhat used to being free but I did hate to leave the children We had a grand time the last day & the house was crowded had speaking & singing in the afternoon We have been busy quilting & spinning Mothers eyes are sore so we have to spin the wasp too Expect it will weave good “over the left” Most of the soldiers that went from around here are home now I think there were over 30 from the Tp went & only one killed J. Pierce & two sickened & died [?] & Colvill quite a number were wounded & some severely but all at home well now It seems so odd & they act so independent too but guess we can match them. Wm is at home too he was at S.S. last Sabbath I heard he intended to go home with me in the afternoon but we all went to the Big grove to hear Mr. Heizer preach a Mr. Harsook funeral sermon he died in the army It was a good sermon if I did loose my bean & maybe he will go some other time for I am anxious to know why he didn't answer my last letter I have not saw Alec yet James D.is at our house now His mother & Aunt Lizza came up yesterday The folks have taken Mrs. Loverage's children from her because she not take care of them she has gone to town to see about getting them back Two of the children are here Household affairs & children claim my attention for awhile. Sun. 27th Beautiful Sabbath morning has come again & I am about ready for Sabbath school My day housekeeping was a success The children were very good but such a snarl of them & all little ones & could hardly tell when I got around especially when I go to putting to bed I had splendid luck with the bread & pies & just got every thing done & set down to rest when I heard the wagon & here they come I ran out to meet them & who should be there but Wm. They all came in & eat supper I soon made coffee & the rest was ready & then they all left Wm. Went with Mr Jessup We did not get to bed till 11 oclock Alice went home with Aunt Mary Tues 29 Am at sister Huldah's now I came up with Gort last night a horseback I had such a nice ride It seems so good to be here again Will stay all day & nothing do do but knit & sing Gort is getting ready to draw hay for mother Eliza & I went pluming [?] yesterday we got about a bus[?] & O how tired we were Wm. Was over Sunday eve & we had a nice visit He did not get my last letter is the reason he didn't write he had a big laugh when I told him I didn't like his last letter & wrote such a spunky reply maybe its best he didn't get it wants to exchange photos September Sun. 3rd I'm seated east of the house this pleasant Sabbath morning It is so cool & nice now after such a very sultry & hot day We went to Sabbath school & singing but it don't seem right to have such singings as we do I fear I sing my religion away for am so far back in the world but still at times I am so happy Dear Savior take my hand & lead me Alice is still at Winterset Each day bring some curious train of action Last Thurs. as we had planned & begun a big day s work of washing housecleaning & cooking for work hands here come a wagon load of ladies & gents & to our infinite surprise & mortification stopped 7 wanted we us & Co. to go to a Soldiers dinner at Afton about 12 ms away Ma seeing we were anxious to go said we might so we stowed everything away got ready in a jiffy & was soon on our way rejoicing. It was absolutely hot but what of that we were having a jolly time We got there about 1 oclock when lo & behold to our utter dismay there was no dinner for it had been postponed& the boys had to take us to the tavern & buy us dinner after bragging all the way down that the dinner was only for the Soldiers & we would have to stand by 7 see them eat There were only six couple & some odd ones & we did not start home till near night so it cool & pleasant I was with Will Wright We all got home about midnight & so ended that day & the next we had to make up for the loss time Yesterday we went after grapes & got all we wanted to carry home & now welcome sweet day of rest after the weeks work Mon. 4th Washing day indeed so thought I as Eliza woke me form a sound nap & I saw it was pleasant after a hard rain & the tubs were full of water There is no getting around that if you have been up part of then night & are sleepy Wm. Was here & the evening was real pleasant till about 10 oclock when a real thunder shower come up & it thundered 7 rained all night Wm. Staid till nearly morning waiting for it to sop & finally had to go in the rain I like his company real he is so interesting & ain't so sickening 7 tiresome as some are He gave me a question to study on till he comes again in two weeks I can ans. It just as well now I think a good deal of him but not enough to marry How I do hate to give any one the mitten & him especially & what is a feller to do I have been expecting Smith up but he has not come I wonder if it wouldn't be better to bluff them all & resign myself to be an old maid Well washing is done but supper is not ready & we are drying corn & fruit & other things We have so many irons in the fire at once don't know which to take out first O well Miss Ettie if you are going to listen to much more like you did last night o say yes to any you may as well be practicing in housework Sept 1864 Thurs. 7th Well well this will pass for a rainy day sure & we are trying to get our things dried. Am afraid they will spoil While I was writing in this the other day here come Lib, Lovey, Alice and Huldah they staid all night & we had a gay old time & finally got to trying our fortunes 7 talked of sending off to get them told & our fellers photos They had a deal to say about Wm. Wedn. 13th Twilight has again veiled the world & I am sitting in the doorway enjoying the scene & writing a little We are very busy & will be all fall We have got two pieces ready to weave one for Mrs. Bonham Angie came over with one last night & is weaving today We got up bright and early to do lots I was detailed to get breakfast Eliza to spin & ma & Angie to put the piece in So I combed my hair & went to getting breakfast as deliberately as could be taking my own time The fire was made the potatoes boiling & bread mixed when Eliza come in past haste saying a soldier was coming I supposed it was some one passing & paid no attention till in stopped Mr Smith O ye poets & writers who among you all can describe my feelings or pen my thoughts There I stood in my calico dress (or Alice's I mean) my hair combed but twisted up with neither net headdress collar or how my hands just out of the dough surely I was a fit subject for an artists I invited him in however & introduced him to the family gave him a chair & [?] & chatted & worked as if all was right & soon had breakfast He declined eating saying he breakfasted at Mr Steurts & as they were going to town had been very early That then was the mystery of his early visit for it was not 1 oclock yet The others did up the work & I changed my dress then they went up stairs to work & left us to visit He staid about an hour then we exchanged pictures & he took his leave Of course I did not escape the remarks of Angie & Eliza & ma helped them so the day has passed & the hour drawn near for rest Fri. 15th Ma has gone over to Aunt Patsy's to spool & warp a piece & left Eliza & I here to weave in Angies I have wove about a yard & Eliza has been baking It is hard work & I am so lame & sore for I pitched so much hay yesterday & then went over to the schoolhouse to practice singing for the celebration next Sat Mr Smith said he would like to come to it but it was the day of their quarterly meeting We have just eat dinner & Roy is going to the P.O. We are going to have an exhibit & charge admittance fee to help build the soldiers monument at Winterset Will wants me to go to Afton to the soldiers dinner the 30th Oct. Mon. 2nd Well yes so I did go buggy riding Sat. with Wm. Went to Afton to a soldier din over the one that was postponed when we went before it was the 30th of Sept It was nearly 8 oclock when we started Eliza went with us with a Mr. Young They had O. Barker's team & nice roads good company& what more was wanting Got there about 11 & went to the hotel to rest a little then went to the speaking at the Public Square It was nice & shady there Mr. Nixon was speaking & after he finished dinner was [?] The soldiers & partners was at the first table so we eat at the first table The dinner was excellent & writers plenty but unfortunately I had the toothache & could not enjoy as much Speaking again after dinner which closed about 4 We went to the hotel again & soon the bell rang for supper but I declined eating on account of my tooth but Eliza went We started for home about sundown & as Will & I were drivers we drove to suit ourselves We talked on every subject imaginable the moon shone bright & we did not care how slow we went but reached home about [8 or 9?] oclock the feasting was over the buggy ride at an end Ma was up shelling corn we helped her awhile then retired to soothe our tooth It was late the next morn when we arose & I felt so lazy & tired thought I wouldn't go to Sabbath school but after considering awhile I went was a good many there & the hour passed pleasantly Gort were here & ma had dinner nearly ready I managed to eat a few bites & then got ma's pipe & had a good old smoke & went to bed to forget my trouble which I soon did It was nearly night when I awoke very much refreshed & my tooth eased Then I read awhile & retired early to rest for Monday It come before I was aware of it & of course brought wash day with it but I spun Alice & Eliza washed & ma wove After dinner Alice went over the river with the pony & then come to the rehearsal at night About dark we went & had a good time but only a few books We adjourned about 10 Eliza was going to ride home in a wagon & me on the pony & Alice going to Octavos I started & got a few rods heard some one coming & I supposed it was Rube Piece paid not attention till he got even with me when here it was Will so the road seemed short then When we got home he tied his horse & put mine away then waited for the others to come along but no other come so he started back to find them We lingered at the gate for the evening was so pleasant He started several times & then turn again to say something else & finally he started he took my watch to get t fixed Tonight is rehearsal again It seems so good to have the boys there none takes a part but Soldier & us big girls I wonder if Will will be there tonight He is so good & kind I think more of him than ever but he appears lonely & does not seem happy Poor boy he has no home how lonely it must be I shall try to help him all I can if Smith does get jealous as I heard the other day he was Mabe he will be up this week then I will make it all right with him Must stop & wipe the dishes Thurs. 5th I have stopped spinning so Eliza can sweep & while I rock will write Ma is weaving will get the pieces out today & Eliza says she is going off with the pony It is a nice day for work today & we have so much to do We went to the rehearsal last night & a good time generally are not enough pieces yet Have sent East for books Will was there & come home with me he is a real torment he wanted to go back when we got part way & when I told him to go said I was too willing We again tarried at the gate I suppose we talked more foolishness than wisdom There is speaking at the schoolhouse today some politicians from Winterset Fri 6 7 oclock & I have got home from a long ride have eat supper & will write a little I went down to where I taught school this summer & seen about all the folks The children were so pleased to see me & I was no less so to see them I went up to school too It seemed like old times again The teachers name is Miss Grosbeck I took dinner at Mr Eppersons they were making molasses Then called all round & when the sun set I was three ms from home & it was quite dark when I had to pass through the woods Then how I wished for Will again We have another piece in & Eliza is going to be weaver Mother is troubled with boils. Thurs 13th Rain clouds & mud are the prevailing elements today But we don't have to work with the cane for it is too wet It is fair day & the other girls have gone to Winterset to attend it Will was going to take me but the rain prevented I like to go with him so well he come home with us from evening meetings & rehearsals but does not come Sunday evenings for I thought he had better not I saw he was disappointed but not offended when I told him I believe he thinks a great deal of me more than he ought for his won good Perhaps I do wrong to go with him at all for the more I go the better I like him (is it like) Last Tues. was Election day & they had to count the votes after dark but said it wouldn't take long so we waited & it was 10 before we had possession of the house for our performance We hurried through & then had some water melons Alice went with Lib & W. Wright with Eliza & will with me so it was late when we retired sleepy enough to sleep three rows at a time for we were up the night before till 2 a boiling molasses are about half done Smith has not been up get or written either I don't care am very well content to have Will for a beau Mon. 23rd Here I am all alone & sitting in the rocking chair I have done various things today housekeeping digging potatoes & quilting for ma but now I am musing & writing Mother is weaving our fullcloth Alice went home with Gorts last eve It is cloudy & looks like rain but we have got through with our molasses & potatoes & have nothing but our corn & shed to deal with in our out door line of business but have spinning & weaving enough to keep us out of mischief O our Exhibition is over & it was a perfect success so they all say & indeed we did have a good time It was about 11 when we got through & then hurrah boys till we got picked up for we had so many things there & to cap it all they left me for it was so dark I couldn't find them But Will found me & brought me home so I had a pleasant trip after all I do not know what to think or how to do Will told me of his love the other night & wished for an answer & what could I say I could not plead indifference to him for have not acted so neither have I felt so neither could I say yes for I intend to stay with ma till am 21 So I told him I would wait my time & then he might ask me the same if he chose but no binding on either side He appeared satisfied I may have done wrong perhaps I did but what could I do O if he was a little more affectionate how I could love him but he acts so distant sometimes yet at the same time he looks all love He says I am the most puzzling enigma he ever tried to solve but surely I am no more so than he is but Charly used to tell me that so often I was so different from any one else I did get a letter from Smith he said he had cut his foot it was two weeks ago & he might be here any time (before breakfast & supper) If he comes next week he wont find me here for I intend to go to the teachers Institute if nothing prevents & expect to have a good time I guess I will teach this winter guess I will go up in Adair Tues. 24 It is raining today & cold too but we can work in the house Gort brought Alice home a horseback Smith did not come last night as I expected There Alice has been reading my journal I wonder what she thinks of it I went over after my school money last Sat. Got $15 came by Mr. Cravens & got two crocks But when I got to the timber it was so dark stopped with Granmother Barker she was alone & I come home before sabbath school. Dec. 3d 1865 It is now Sabbath eve & here I am away from home & installed a teacher in a German school & about nine ms. from home I come from Fontanell today & a stormy time we had but drove very fast brother O & wife were with me he has a school about 4 ms. from here & we went together to be inspected Found Didas well & had a good short visit We got here about 1 oclock Mrs. Balley had dinner ready & the others stopped & eat & warmed I am to board here & think I will like it real well School is to begin in the morning & I am anxious to see the scholars there will not be many & I get $30 per month Hope I will have a good time Dec. 4th The first day of school is gone & I had 12 scholars & good house & seats & every thing comfortable & think I will enjoy the winter first rate but I am not going home till Christmas so I shall look forward with great anticipation I shall miss Wm. too He came home with me from prayer meeting Wedn. eve for the last time for awhile. He is greatly changed lately is so affectionate now but acted so coldly before I have his watch chain to wear He appears so restless & unhappy but how can I comfort him O Will if you had been here about the time I began school I would have said yes & sealed the contract as soon as you wished But it is otherwise now Wedn. 6th O what a delightful snow storm but is not cold If I was at home would think there would be prospects of some sleigh rides but none here I had 14 scholars today They are very apt scholars There is Dutch meeting tonight & the Minister is here now Guess I will go if I can't understand I wonder what our folks are doing expect they think I am homesick by this time but I am not Thurs. 7 I just come from school 7 is another preacher here so will be meeting tonight I went last night but it was so stormy did not many come If I mis the society of the young folks I will not lose my religion & I have a friend here “who sticketh closer than a brother” One more day & one week of school gone Sun. 10 Sweet day of rest thou hast come once more but I can not go to church yet I am not lonely for have been reading in the Testament all the forenoon There are so many sweet promices [sic] & precepts The lsat I read was Ephe. 5 chap. & I stopped to wonder if Wm. & I possessed the love for each other than the 33 v. speaks of I believe I do if he was only a Christian but the Apostle says “Marry only in the Lord” & I know it would be such a comfort & blessing to be united in Christian love as well as love for one another I will speak to him on this subject Today is the regular meeting so expect the folks ar all at church Mrs. Bally & I took a sleighride to Greenfield but she was taken with a severe headache so we didn't enjoy our visit very well & I had to drive home Got here a little after dark & found Mr. Bally & a good fire So I got supper & done up the work & went to bed early I don't mind sleeping alone now There are two young Dutchmen here & ih ave to listen to their talk Fisher is going to school to learn the English language he is very tall & rather good looking Well dinner is ready We have good victuals here Wedn. 13 It is recess & is so cold I let the children play in the houe for there are only six here but they make so much noise I can hardly think but such is childhood let them enjoy the fun while they know so little of the world Who knows what sphere in life these children will fill Cares may come with years The heart may be sad & wrinkles come before the time but that does not disturb them now The heart of their teacher is often sad though she smiles upon them How little do they dream of this In early got homesick the other evening in thinking of the past & future then the lines of a hymn came to mind “Cast all your cares on Jesus & don't forget to pray” I did so & have felt better ever since A little over a week & I can go home I dream of them nearly every night Mrs. Bally is so kind & sociable I slept down stairs last night for the first time Tues. 19 Well well here it is nearly a week since I have written any How surprised our folks will be to know how swiftly & pleasantly time passes to me I have been very busy helping Mrs. Bally The threshers were he Sat. had 10 men three young germans among them I did not know the country afforded so many They got done before night Sunday I had another sleighride We went over on Middle River & I saw a number of acquaintances 7 some old scholars who were very much surprised to see me We passed a very pleasant but not very profitable day At about 3 we started home but did not get there till late for it is about 11 mss. But I enjoyed the ride very much for the evening was pleasant But the next morning it was snowing it will soon be Fr. & then “Welcome sweet home” Tues. 26 Tues has come again & I am just home from school but found the house deserted & locked & I hunted for the key in vain & then tried the windows & was more successful & have made a fire & await the result My visit home is over Christmas is past & I come back lonelier than before I had a very pleasant visit but why was Wm. Absent why was he not among the ones to welcome me home In fact why doe not his actions agree with his words for I did not see him while there It was nearly dark Fri. night & I had given up any one coming after me & about persuaded myself that I was sick when here come Rloy & Eliza & I soon forgot it We got home about 7 & found all well & glad to see me & had lots of questions to ask & answer Sat. we had so many kinds of work & so busy the day soon slipped away Sunday we did not get up till alt & just got the work done when Mr. Stuart stopped for me to got to meeting So of course I went & when we got back brother Octavo & family & Huldah & family were there & Stuarts stopped for dinner & we made quite a crowd They all left about sundown & Eliza & I went home with Huldah We talked & cracked nuts till late I did not hang up my stocking for they said it would be no use for there was a hole in it [sic]We got up early for we had to go home for had so much to do Gort said if I would milk he would take us home in the sleigh but I told him I would rather walk as milk So we milked & then took us home We got there before 10 & found Alice fixing ma to go to town a visiting Heard there was to be a party at Mr. Bierces & supposed of course some one would be after us We laughed & talked about going & had signs innumerable but no beaux or invites came Still we hoped against hope & looked 7 expected till dark but in vain Then we began to wonder surmise & conjecture what was up 7 why we were slighted but could not come to any definite conclusion about it Only we concluded we had not gone to the party or waa not going but it was a joke any way for we had been so sure 7 we could not help laughing So we began to crack nuts & plan for the future which took till 9 oclock & as I had to come back here early we retired 7 soon forgot our disappointments in sleep I heard that Wm. Has traded his place in Union, Co for one & part of a saw mill 2 ms from Mothers. Fri. 29 It is noon ½ a day & one month of school gone There is writing school here tonight Mr. Duell is teacher how I wish Wm. Would come with him & take me home Br. Bally took us down to Swearses school house last Wedn. Night to writing school There were 13 scholars [sic]I had to whip one my scholars this morning The first one & I hope the last We will spend the afternoon spelling & singing The children enjoy it so much [sic] Wrote to Mr. Smith last eve in ans. to one I got while at home He was prevented from coming up by sickness & then waited for my letter I told him what a nice house I had here Guess he will think it aint much like the one I had last summer Sat. 30 I have been doing a little of every thing today Washed ironed fried caked helped cut a coat & been writing & now I must say a little to my journal before I start to writing school I went last night & got through the letters Were 14 scholars Duell had a sight to say about Wm. They live close together Well I declare if ever I laughed as much in the same length of time as I have the last two days I want to get it all done before I go to writing school But Mrs. Bally & I must have some fun if we do make it ourselves Jan. 3d It is almost dark & I just got home from school Mr. Duell was here at school all day yesterday but there were only 10 boys & no girls I was real sorry He said Miss Underwood died last Sat. night I went to Dutch meeting last Sun. Was a good many out Mrs. Bally & I are keeping house alone Br. B. has gone to Fontanelle on business Don't know when I will go home Mon 8 Well am I homesick, got the don't cares, blues or what is the matter of me Am sure I don't know I will write a little & maybe it will cure e; but I have felt down spirited for several days & have been home too Mr. Duell Mrs. Bally were at school Fri. & we had a good time spelling & singing Then Mr Augustine took us all down to the writing school Alice & some others were there & at recess we sung “The southern girls” & “Shermans march to the sea” & I have not felt singy since I went home with them & it was a long cold ride The rest appeared to enjoy it but I did not It was 11 oclock when we got to Stuarts They treated us to cakes & apples & then retired I awoke before light & called the rest up for was in a hurry to get home but was nearly 10 before we got started Mrs. Stuart went with us Found all well & washing ma had a gathering in her ear but was better yes I have been home again 7 not seen Wm. What can be the matter Surely something has changed the love he said would never grow cold We have not seen each other for 2 months & only 7 ms. apart But I am to proud to make any advances when we do meet till I know the cause of this long silence Jan. Tues. 15 Here I am a scholar this morning instead of a teacher & at Fontanell too I come up yesterday in the greatest storm we have had this winter Mr. Bally brought me to Greenfield then Mr Myers brought six of us teachers over here Dida & I called on Mrs. Taylor last night I had not seen her since she was married She has a little one & is quite sick It is about time to go to the Institute & have to go alone for May is sick Vet is at the Fort will be gone all week Wedn. 16 It is after breakfast A young man called to see May She is better It is quite cold Guess we will have a good time at the Institute had a good lecture last night Must get ready to go Jan. Sun. 28 When I last wrote I was attending the Institute but have taught a week 7 been home since The Institute passed very pleasantly & profitably to us all I do enjoy going so much & I went regularly till the last eve it was very cold & stormy May was not able to go any Vet brought me down Sun. Found a minister 7 wife here so we all went to meeting at night The week passed like other weeks & Fri found me wondering if I would get a chance to go home And sure enough before night who should drive up but Wm. I was surprised & delighted but would rather not met him in school but it could not be helped & dismissed early Of course we had plenty to talk about but I was anxious to have the long absence explained which he did but not exactly to my liking but it done for an excuse & I let it pass Our folks were surprised to see us but Alice soon got us some supper & Wm. spent the evening with us The next morning it was snowing some but I had to wash & just got done when Octavos come but I sewed & visited 7 the girls done the housework At night Wm. come to take me a sleighriding & we went over to Brays new store & when we got back our folks were all gone up to Huldah's so we went on for it was near his home H[?] baby was not very well so we staid late & it was near 12 before we got home & to bed When I awoke I found Eliza had got home from the party she went to the eve before We all had invites but Alice & I did not accept for we had not got over our Christmas party yet I soon aroused her to learn the particulars & we had nothing but party for some time but I had to get ready to come back to school & was just ready as Wm. came It was nearly noon when we started & come by to see how Huldahs baby was found it better What all we said on the road it matters not to tell but when we got here we were united more strongly than ever in the bonds of love yes I have promised to his wife (how curious that sounds) if mother does not object & I am most sure she wont I don't believe I will ever repent my choice yet he is not as affectionate as I will he was He took my answer as cool as if it was a small occurrence Yet it was the third time he had asked me & I did not think I loved him well enough to accept before Perhaps our separation done me good & I know my own heart better now He is very thoughtful & kind & I know he loves me dearly I don't know when I will see him again for I don't believe in having beaux away from home We are having a jolly time tonight Mrs. Bally has been laughing at me as usual I do think so much of her we have had a good time this winter Shall miss her a great deal when school is out which will be one month then home again for a little while What will I do when I leave for always but it is only two ms. to wms home He is fixing the house some Tues. 30 It is a very pleasant evening I just come from school & must rock & write the first thing I had company yesterday afternoon Mrs. Bally Miller & Wilson came in & we had a nice time The children were quite orderly & sang real well We are here along Mr. Bally has gone to mill Feb. Mon. 5 Supper is most ready but I am not hungry have only eat a piece of cake since breakfast My appetite is real poor this winter I guess Mrs. Bally will take me home Sat. We went over to Middle River to attend protracted meeting last Fri. but found it was 7 ms. farther so only went one night Was a great deal of interest manifested I heard a meeting would begin at the Osborn school house next week O how I hope & pray that Wm. will take an interest in it. Mr. Bowman 7 wife came a little while ago I am making tatten[?] Fri. 9 Well here it is Fri night I count time by the fri nights but have only two more to count Mrs B. will take me home tomorrow Sister Dida and family sent down today stopped for me but I couldn't go then it is warm & cloudy as if it would rain Mrs. Bally took Mr Bowman to Greenfield yesterday his wife staid here about ready when she got home Was trying how housekeeping would go & I guess I done fine I have got my new apron one that Mrs. Bally gave me I have made a collar & some tatten for her this week & been to meeting two evenings & staid at Mr. Augustines one night Mon. 12 The other women have gone up stairs to fix some beds for trappers & I guess its about bed time but I must write the news first Sat. morning was cloudy & stormy & seemed rather juberous [sic] about going home but we started about 10 & it cleared off but got colder by noon We found a house full to welcome us & dinner about ready Huldah & dida & families & Mrs. Stuart were there We intended to go to meeting at night but it got so cold The next morning I made a fire & milked & the other got breakfast Then we got ready for meeting but when we went to the wagon Roy had put the harness on the wrong horses & the horses on the wrong side & we had to change them & just got ready to start when Vet. & Wm. come. Wm said he come down to go to meeting with us so he got in & we went to Mr. Badley's & left the team as it was but a little way to church How good it seemed to go to meeting again & understand the sermon & it was such a good one too It was most night when we got home all right I suppose Wm is at meeting now I wish I was there too Can it be that we are soon to enjoy each others society all the time & I shall try to act so he will not rue his choice. Tues 13 O what a beautiful winter morning I thas been a snowing & the wind did not blow & the trees & bushes are loaded with snow & every thing looks so light white & feathery but at the least motion or touch it all falls off Some will have sleighrides now but I can not for must be at school If it was not for that there would be some prospect It is for the best as it is & I am content It is a great pleasure to me to teach the children God bless them What would the world be without them Only 7 more day s & I will be free till summer terms begin I want to get the school at home if I can They want me here again but I want to be at home It is now recess Still snows slowly but pleasantly the trappers have left us & Mr. Bally has gone to take a log to Wm's mill I got a letter from Mrs. Jeters they live away west They were getting along very well Said there is a young man out there who said I as the very girl for him Suited him exactly & wants my photo He judges by my letters I wonder what Wm. would say to that Alice's health is quite ppor again She has been to Winterset a week attending meeting Wed. 14 Dear one If this aint Valentine day & O what a cold one I believe it is the coldest stormyest day we have had this winter have only 4 scholars I come up & made a fire but the house is not warm yet Mr. Bally offered to come but I did not know it was so cold Wonder if I will a Valentine It will be the first one if I do Wonder how our folks get along doing the chores this morning O how cold it is shall not stay here till night I am making tatten for Mrs. Bally to send to her sister who is to be married the 1st of March She is about my age I wonder how the meeting down the river prospers Last Sabbath was communion & what a blessed time it was I hesitated awhile before going forward The thoughts of our Christmas trouble & my feelings toward some kept me back but I prayed for strength & fully & freely forgave them Should such a thing keep us from Heaven God forbid & O Father help me to set such an example before others as becometh a Christian. Feb. Sun 18 Sabbath eve again & away from home yet but it wont be so much longer for I got my discharge soon How different are my feeling tonight from what they were three months ago Then I was entering a strange school & did not know what the future three months would be success or failure but tonight I can say success & it is with regret that I bid adieu to my children & friends here I have heard not complaint whatever about the school I want the parents to all come Thurs. for that is the last day Tomorrow is Gorts sale they intend to go to Kansas but I do hope they will give it up Our family is mostly grown & will soon be scattered but O Father grant that we may all be reunited in heaven Fri. 23 Well here I am at home once more to stay while & I am so glad It is very cold today School was out yesterday Mother & Roy come up after me & we all had such a good time at school & the children done so well There were a good many there I tried to sing the parting song but broke down The children all cried & it affected me greatly & it was hard to say good by especially Mrs. Bally & Josie but all over we started for home but did not get here till after dark Huldahs baby has a swelling behind its ear & it quite unwell Guess I will go over to writing school if it is not too cold tonight. March Mon. 12 It is about dark & I feel lonely & sleepy There is no one here but Huldah & children & myself ma has gone to warp a piece Alice & Eliza is over the river Since I wrote I have been to Winterset visiting Staid over a week & Mattie come home with me Tues. Wed. Lib. & Lige Pierce was married They had a grand wedding & lots of folks there & invited Eliza but didn't ask Alice & I But Mattie was here & we had plenty of fun over our slight & we do not recognize any acquaintanceship with any of them when we meet them in public & they look & act as guilty as though they had been stealing sheep Tacy & Tom Person went to Win. The same day & was married& Mattie D. & S. White were married the next day & last week was not much of a time for weddings either I got a drab Moreno dress & am making it today It cost $9 but have been wanting one so long thought I would get it any way Is trimmed with cable cord & tassels April 24 Yes here I am past 20 ys. Old & so tired yesterday I had a birthday party & a good time of course The girls came in the morning to quilt & they boys at 3 oclock to stay till after tea There was a nice shower in the morning & we feared it might spoil our fun but it cleared off & here they come We worked real good & steady till the boys come then they had to help & so work soon stopped & did not get near done had a nice supper & company left at dark The rest done the work & I had nothing to do but entertain & have a good time So passed my 20th birthday will those in the future be as bright If not I can look back with pleasure to one bright spot in the past we went to a wedding the 7th of this month the second one I ever attended it was Rob Badley & Kate Greer Of course we had a good time “Who ever didn't” I am to teach the school at home this summer & must got to Winterset in a few days for a certificate May 10, 1866 Dear Journal how you are neglected of late & you have been such a faithful friend of my girlhood & these days will soon be over then this volume will be done & another begun then what will be the record It is hard to tell “One to cherish who may grieve me One to trust who may deceive [sic] me” Time only can prove We are to be married the 6th of Sept & so much to do before that I intend to get the house plastered & things comfortable for ma before I leave her That is my only grief I fear nothing in the future for myself Wm. is as devoted as I could wish when we are alone but in public he hardly notices me I hardly like such a marked difference but it is his way I suppose He says he cant understand me yet I am so different from others & I surely don't understand him but I do not doubt his love Hark to the bugles shrill calling As is pierces the soft summer air Tears from the soldiers are falling For their brave gallant Comrad is gone Chorus The bayonets earthward are turning And the drums muffled breath rolls along But he hears not the voice of the mourning Nor awakes at the bugles call Sleep soldier sleep the nation mourns thee The first to depart to the fray Long ere the nation shall forget thee And thy name from the earth pass away Chorus Sleep soldier sleep the nation mourns thee She needed thee the true and the brave Why why did this evil befall thee Why shrouded they thy form for the grave Chorus The Old Musician & his harp 1st Years have come and passed away Golden locks have turned to gray Stolen ringlets once so fair Time has changed to silvery hair Yes I neared the rivers side Soon I'll launch upon its tide Soon my boat with noiseless oar Soon will glide to yonder shore Cho. Bring my harp to me again Let me sing some gentle strain Let me feel those chords once more Ere I pass to yon bright shore 2nd O those chords with magic power Take me back to childhood hour To the cot beside the sea Where I knelt at Mothers knee But that Mother she is gone Calm she sleep beneath the stone While I wander here alone Sighing for a brighter home Cho. 3rd. Where is now that happy group Once so full of joy and hope Happy voices full of glee None are here to speak to me All alone upon the stream Olden days seem but a dream Soon I'll meet the loved ones gone Soon again we'll meet at home Cho. 4th Fathers counsel Mothers prayers Round their children every where In my dreams I hear them yet Lonely hearts cannot forget Parents brothers sisters too All were called and had to go I alone am here today Dear old home has passed away Chorus 5th Soon I'll be among the blest Where the weary are at rest Soon I'll tread the golden shore Singing praises evermore Yes my boat is on the stream I can see its waters gleam Soon I'll be where angel roam Dear old harp I'm going home Chorus Col. Elsworth funeral 1st Hark to the bugles shrill calling As is pierces the soft summer air Tears from the Zouaves are falling For the brave gallant Elsworths not there The bayonets earthward are turning And the drums muffled breath rolls along But he hears not the voice of the mourning Nor awakes at the bugles call 2nd Sleep Soldier thoug [sic] many regret thee Who stand around they cold bier today Soon soon shall the fondest forget thee And thy name from the earth pass away And he who dids't love the [sic] as brother A friend in thy place will have gained Thy dog shall keep watch for another And thy steed by a stranger he reined 3rd Those who mourn for the sadly Soon joyous as ever will be And thy bright orphan boy will laugh gladly As he sits on some brave comrads [sic] knee A friend to the true & the brace Now sad in her youth and her beauty She weep o'er a soldier grave Written April 11, 1885 Consolation 1st Drooping souls no longer grieve Heaven is propitious If on Christ you do believe You will find him precious Jesus now is passing by Calling mourners too him He has died for you and I Now look up & view him 2nd O behold his hands his side Streams a flowing fountain See the consolation tide Boundless as the Ocean See the living waters move For the sick and dying Now resolve to gain his love Or to perish trying 3rd Streaming mercy how it flows Now I know I feel it Half has never yet been told But I want to tell it Jesus blood has healed my wounds O the wondrous story I was lost but now I'm found Glory glory glory 4th Glory to the Saviors name Saints are bound to praise him Mourers [sic] you may do the same Only come and prove him Hasten to the Saviors love Feel it and declare it O that I could sing so loud All the world might hear it 5th If no greater joys were known In the upper region I would try to travel on In this pure religion Jesus here and Jesus there Saints are here & yonder Bright the Seraphs shine around While the angles wonder April 23, 1881 Well well here I am 35 ys. old today What an old lady I am to be sure but don't know as I feel any older than I did at 20 & people do say I have not changed much in looks I do believe a great deal depends on keeping the hear young to keep our looks young & my life seems such a happy one with such a good man & y good smart children Lester a fat good natured pretty child of nine months We have recently moved to a place one mile from Redfield Dallas Co. Iowa It is a pretty place in the village of Wescota [?] can see the Narraw Gange [?] cars pass a qr[?] North of us we have a nice large orchard & plenty of small fruits Brother Elias & wife are here he was married the 16 of Dec. Alice has gone to Arizona to live She is quite wealthy but don't believe she sees the enjoyment I do home enjoyment I mean Dida has been sick since jan & I have not been to see her It seems so strange we are all so old she has been grandma over a year has three children at home yet Arthur Dida & Effie they live at Fontanell yet Octavo Hollan Roy & Lizzie down in the old neighborhood I have not been there for more than two ys. Sun. Aug 19/ 77 It is now twilight & Sabbath eve. We have been to Sabbath school, class meetings & heard Mr. Graham preach at 3 oclock & a long walk home Have had supper & the chores done & sung some pieces & now have given myself up to reflection & meditation. Of course my mind turns back to home & friends of old & I feel lonely & forsaken but a voice speaks in the cheering text “lo I am with you always” & I think with delight that will be my subject of thought for this week for what words could be more appropriate & welcome at such a time He means to say though far from most loved friends though sad & lonely in whatever circumstances & conditions you are placed do not be discouraged for “lo I am with you” what else need you wish for Have not I promised to help in every time of need & to overcome temptation to strengthen in weakness to guard in danger to comfort in sorrow Can you not trust me when I have given you some many promises & have I declined you in any And we feel to exclaim like doubting Thomas “My Lord & my God.” O if we could always feel the truth of those words that Jesus is indeed with us always not at stated times but always how would the impatient or wicked words be hushed or the gossip among those who claim to be his people or how would the guilty who perpetrates crime in the darkness of night feel if the words “Lo I am with you” were suddenly brought to mind for there words could be used to denounce as well as cheer O sad lonely & desponding heart cheer up your Savior is with you & has promised to provide a way of escape from every temptation & help bear every affliction & be with you always What more can you ask Unless it is a will to be like his A contented & happy spirit to be obedient to his wishes “Lo I am with you always” blessed assurance What are the petty cares & troubles when these words come to mind Not only in there words does the same promise exist but in others similar In the 43 & 44 chapt of Isaiah he says time & again “Fear not I am with you” & to the disciples in their trouble on the deep he says “it is I be not afraid” & many others The past Kennedy must have been considering this subject when he composed his hymn which says Fear not I am with you O be no dismayed I I [sic] am thy God 7 will still be thy aid I'll strengthen thee help thee 7 cause thee to stand upheld by my righteous omnipotent hand & so I sit & ponder on the greatness of the love that prompted the utterance of all theses precious promises & say in my heart “What is man that Thou art mindful of him or the Song of man that thou dost visit him” with such rich grace & blessing till the darkness ends my meditation & the wants of the children claim my attention. Apr. 2nd, 1900 While I sit here at twilight in my easy chair so tired O so tired with my days work & tired in mind with the almost constant demands upon me a sudden thought almost a voice come “Where is your burden bearer” who “Cast you care on one who careth for you” The I think with a sigh has He not home enough for me already Then a new thought comes It does not burden him it is your thoughts of Him & His [sic] And his many promises sends a glow into your heart & you forget your burdens & the tired feeling just as the story of the two disciples who were going from Jerusalem to Emmans & Jesus walked with them They were tired discouraged & disappointed because Jesus had been put to death when they trusted it was he who should redeem Israel but when they found it was Jesus who walked & talked with them they said “Did not our heats burn within us as he talked to us by the way” So he will talk to us by the way if we listen to his words & forget we are tired or discouraged & the burden will fall to the ground. Like Pilgrims not on His shoulders to bear And our hearts will glow with a brightness nothing else will produce And the darkness deepens & I still sit & ponder & wonder why we ever try to carry our own burden s when we know by experience “He is a present help at all times” & I feel rested & refreshed by the thoughts & close with the old hymn Tarry with me blessed Jesus Leave me not till morning light For I'm lonely here without you Tarry with me through the night Sept. 6th, 1882 I must drop all business today sure for it is our anniversary & write a little in this dear old friend yes dear but neglected for other things & what better can be expected of an old woman (I wouldn't want anyone else to call me that) been married 16 years today at 1 oclock how uncertain the future seemed that day & although the present was so bright & today as I look back over the past I can truly say “surely goodness & mercy has followed me all the days of my life” Today is a bright pleasant day Will is at home some older & better than 16 years ago rather gray & some bald but the same tease of old Leon Arlis & Sylvia are at school nice good children of which anyone might be proud & little Lester the pet is busy around the house so cute with his talk We have lots of fruit this year & it seems so good to have all we want & a good garden too Crops of all kinds are good Our family & Ma's family are still living Lizza has her 5th girl, Roys have 4 children Dida is still ailing I was over there this spring have not been to the old home yet but expect to go this month I like to live here real well for have a pretty place & such good church privileges Will & the two oldest boys have joined the Methodist church with me & I have been [?] of the Sa School almost a year the average att. 40 The little girls have met here very Mon 2 oclock to sing it makes me feel young & like old times to teach children to sing April 23/83 As I only write on stated occasions this is one of them & a cold rainy day it is & while I washing dishes a neighbor Sutterfee[?] & family come to stay the day & he & will went ducking got 9 I always enjoy visits with her We still live at Redfield & our place looks nice the house is roomy but old Some think the apple trees are ruined with the cold winter but cant tell yet ours are getting green but maybe there is life enough to do that & then die [?] plenty grass & flowers & our early garden is ready to cultivate There is not much work yet Leon works at home & takes music lessons of Miss Randolph Artis & Sylvia go to school Lester helps any one Yes I am 37 & hardly a bit grey teeth good cheek red & quite a comely Matron I suppose a novelist would express it I don't remember what I was doing on very many birthdays but 17 ys. Today had a quilting the girls come in the morning the boys at three & staid till after tea Of course had a good time & nearly all were living the last I knew of them I love to think of the past there are so many bright spots & to read this book brings up so many pleasant memories Good by Will I be here to write in this a year from today? April 23, 1885 I have washed & mopped & now have fixed up to act the lady the rest of the day & by the looks it will be elderly lady at that 39 I suppose yes & quite wrinkled & homely I can see but I am trying to be tat much better It is cold & rainy as it seems to be every year I have written in this We are now living in our old home in Dexter Iowa We lived here five years & moved away nine ys ago but it seemed like coming home We rented here for the children to have better schools Leon is in the Normal School here. The others attend the public school Are all good scholars for their ages. Will works in the furniture store he has very poor health The rest of us have good health & my relatives have been spared to me Wills Bro. Jerry died the 27 of last Jan. with Paralysis he suffered about 8years We have not made garden yet it has been so rainy but the grass is large enough for cattle to live on it The neighbors have not been very friendly as yet but we all attend S. School & meetings which is a great blessing for we all love to go & when I look at our 4 big children I think that my life has not be in vain & I praise the Lord for the promises to our children as well as to us Well good by old journal good by till next time So though wast a true friend in my youth so we will trust the in age good by Celestia Barker Somebody's darling Into a ward of the whitewashed halls, Where the dead and the dying lay Wounded by bayonets, shells and balls, Somebody's dearly was borne one day- Somebody's darling, so young and so brave, Wearing yet on his pale, sweet face, Soon to be hid by the dust of the grave, The lingering light of his boyhood's grace. Matted and damp are the curls of gold, Kissing snow of the fair, young brow, Pale are the lips of delicate mold— Somebody's darling is dying now. Back from his beautiful blue-veined brow, Brush all the wandering waves of gold; Cross his hands on his bosom now— Somebody's darling is still and cold. Kiss him once for somebody's sake, Murmur a prayer both soft and low; One bright curl from its fair mates take- They are somebody's pride, you know; Somebody's hand hath rested there— Was it a mother's, soft and white? And have the lips of a sister fair Been baptized in their waves of light? God knows best! He was somebody's love; Somebody's heart enshrined him there; Somebody wafted his name above, Night and morn on the wings of prayer. Somebody wept when he marched away, Looking so handsome brave and grand; Somebody's kiss on his forehead lay, Somebody clung to his parting hand. Somebody's waiting and watching for him Yearning to hold him again to her heart; And there he lies with his blue eyes dim, And the smiling child-like lips apart, Tenderly bury the fair young dead Pausing to drop on his grave a tear; Carve in the wooden slab at his head, “Somebody's darling slumbers here”-Marie R. Lacoste Lament of the Irish Emigrant I'm sitting on the stile, Mary, Where we sat side by side, On a bright morning long ago, When you were my bride. The corn was spring fresh and green, And the lark sang loud and high, And the red was on thy lip, Mary, And the love light in your eye. The place is little changed, Mary, The day is bright as then; The lark's loud song is in my ear, And the corn is green again! But I miss the soft clasp of your hand, And your breath warm on my cheek, And I still keep listening for the words You never more may speak. ‘Tis but a step down yonder lane, And the little church stands near: The church where we were wed, Mary, I see the spire from here; But the grave-yard lies between, Mary, And my step might break your rest; For I laid you, darling down to sleep With your baby on your breast. I'm very lonely now, Mary For the poor make no new friends! But Oh! [?] love thee better far, The few our Farther sends. And you were all I had, Mary, My blessing and my pride; There's nothing left to care for now Since my poor Mary died. I'm bidding you a long farewell, My Mary kind and true; But I'll not forget you, darling, In the and I'm going to; They say there's bread and work for all, And the suns hine always there; But I'll not forget old Ireland, Were it fifty times as fair. And often in those grand old woods, I'll sit and shut my eyes, And my heart will travel back again, To the place where Mary lies; And I'll think I see the little stile, Where we sat side by side, And the spring corn, and bring May morn When first you were my bride. Be Kind to the Loved Ones at Home 1. Be kind to thy father; for when thou wert young', Who loved thee so fondly as he'? He caught the first accents that fell from thy tongue, And joined in thy innocent glee. 2. Be kind to thy father; for now he is old, His locks intermingled with gray; His footsteps are feeble, once fearless and bold: Thy father is passing away. 3. Be kind to thy mother; for lo! On her brow May traces of sorrow be seen; O, well may'st thou cherish and comfort her now; For loving and kind she hath been. 4. Remember thy mother; for thee will she pray As long as God giveth her breath; With accents of kindness then cheer her lone way, E'en to the dark valley of death. 5. Be kind to thy brother; his heart will have dearth If the smile of thy joy be withdrawn; The flowers of feeling will fade at their birth If the dew of affection be gone. 6. Be kind to thy brother; wherever you are, The love of a brother shall be An ornament purer and richer by far Than pearls from the depths of the sea 7. Be kind to thy sister; not many may know The depth of true sisterly love; The wealth of the ocean lies fathoms below The surface that sparkles above. 8. Thy kindness shall bring to thee many sweet hours, And blessings thy pathway to crown; Affection shall weave thee a garland of flowers, More precious than wealth or renown. A Maiden's Soliloquy Annie L. Leslie Tis wondrous strange, How great the change, Since I was in my teens. Then I had beaux And billets-doux, And joined the gayest scenes. But lovers now have ceased to vow; No way they can contrive To poinson, hang, or drown themselves, Because—I'm thirty-five! Once if the night Were e'er so bright I ne'er abroad could roam, Without, “The bliss, the honor, miss, Of seeing you safe home?” But now I go Through rain and snow, Fatigued, and scarce alive; Through all the dark, Without a spark, Because—I'm thirty-five! They used to call, And aske me all About my health so frail; And thought a ride Would help my side, And make my cheeks less pale; But now, alas! If I am ill None cares that I revive, And my pale cheek In vain may speak, Because—I'm thirty-five! Now if a ride improves my side, I'm forced to take a stage, For that is deemed quite proper For a person of my age. And then no hand is offered me To help me out alive; They ‘twon't hurt me now to fall, Because—I'm thirty-five! O, dear, ‘tis queer That every year I'm slighted more and more; For not a beau pretends to show His head within our door; Nor ride, nor card, nor soft address. My spirits now revive; And one might near as well be dead. As say—“I'm thirty-five!” The Gypsy's Warning. Trust him not, O Gentle Lady Though his voice be low and sweet, Heed not him who kneels before thee, Softly pleading at thy feet. Now thy life is in its morning; Cloud not this thy happy lot, Listen t the Gypsy's warning, Gentle Lady, trust him not, Lady, once there lived a miden, Young and pure, and like thee fair; Yet he wooed, he wooed and won her, Thrilled her gentle heart with care. Then he heeded not her weeping, He cared not her life to save! Soon she perished—now she's sleeping In the cold and silent grave! Lady turn not from me so coldly; For I have only told the truth, Froma stern and withering sorrow, Lady, I would shield thy youth. I would shield thee from all danger, Shield thee from the tempter's snare Lady, shun the dark-eyed stranger, I have warned thee—now beware. Take your gold, I do not want it, Lady, I have prayed for this, For the hour that I might foil him, And rob him of expected bliss. Aye, I see thou art filled with wonder At my look so fierce and wild, Lady, in the churchyard yonder Sleeps the Gipsy's [sic] only child. Sept 6, 1876 Wednesday & O what a rainy day & this is our 10th anniversary so I believe I wont work much but enjoy myself as well as I can & think of the past especially 10 ys. ago today Then at half past one oclock our old minister Mr Ewing asked the solemn questions which united me to the man of my choice How plainly it all comes to mind today Let me see yes the last year has been the happiest of the 10 & today I feel that I have been blest far above what I deserve Our children have all been spared to us & my husband is all that I had expected kind & affectionate I have never been left all night alone yet if business calls him away he provides other company & I am sure he will be home as soon as possible He is at home today & often refers to 10 ys. ago. He does not seem much older than then & old friends tell me I have not changed I don't seem to feel older for my health is very good We are living on a farm now & I am very busy drying wild fruit We like it much better than town life Apr 23rd, 1904 Dear old journal it has been long long since I have written & now this is my 58 birth day & how busy I have been It is Sat. & we washed then I cleaned the cellar then dressed up & walked to Broadway (about ¾ mile) to get some things & still don't feel tired. We are living in Denver, Colorady & have a beautiful home far nicer than I ever dreamed of having It is of brick & has 7 rooms & everything so nice & convenient Our children all live in the city & all married but Merle Our youngest a boy 15 ys. old & Effie Shannon, a niece the same age live with us How much I have to be thankful for & how often I have proved the old song I have always loved “Even down to old age all my people shall prove my sovereign eternal unchanable [sic] love And when hoary hairs shall their temples adorn Like lambs they shall still in my bosom be born” Blessed promise, blessed hope but it seem as if I am getting only as I look in the glass for I am most always so old Bright's Disease Warner Safe Bidney & Liner Cure (written upsidedown at the bottom of the page): West Branch Feb 2nd 1871 Mr B. V. Comaway (?) Kidney disease Sweet spr nitre 2 oz Oil sweet almonds 2 oz. Hirpentine [?] 1 oz A teaspoon full every three or 4 hours to retain urine Tineture Cantharides for a child 6 to 10 drops twice a day Diabetes Beth room Black cohost root Geranium root & cherry bark 4 oz each powder & mix well ½ oz powder 1 pt. Boiling water when cold drink during the day Pills Podophyllin 10 gr Sangrinin 20 Cosyeme [?] 40 Liprecae [?] 20 Take one night & morn Make 40 pills Baldness prevented 4 oz castor oil 8 oz Jamaca [sic] rum 30 dr. oil lavender, 10 drops oil rose 1 teaspoon supercarbonate of soda once or twice per day Names and address of correspondents from 1860 to 1865 1st Wm O. Lee. Co. D. 1st Iowa Cav. 2nd Elihu G. Barker “ “ “ “ 3rd E. C. Steuart Co. T. 4th Iowa Inft. 4th J. H. Dorrance “ “ “ “ 5th W. C. Wright Co. K. “ “ “ 6th W. Mobley Co. H. “ “ “ 7th T. Pearson Co. H. “ “ “ 8th Wm Barker Co. “ 23rd Reg. Iowa Inft 9th Alexander Shepherd “ “ “ “ “ “ 10th B. S. Bonham Co. “ 9th Iowa Cav. 11th F. M. Smith Co. F. 4th “ Inft. 12th A. Thornbrue Co. G. 9th “ “ 13th J. H. Epperson Co. H. 4th “ “ Jerry Wilson 4th Cav. Tom WILson 4th Cav.